I should have known not to look inside, for I would covet what was there. It's not for me. I am of those who may observe and pretend but never possess. Acceptance brings tears of defeat that will fortify and protect. Safely standing guarded and alone, the pain of realization comes to pass. Another empty promise, it won't happen again. It always ( Read more... )

I am too tired to try to think right now. I don't understand why I have been so closed, so blind, so distracted. I am looking the wrong way, along with so many others. We have been duped, we have been tricked. We have done so willingly of course. We are easily distracted by shiny things. We are involved and engrossed in our day to day, our american ( Read more... )

I can not express myself more plainly than I do at this moment. If this is not me than I do not know myself. I am a person who posesses the talent for change. I can change at the drop of hat, at a moments notice. I can become whatever it is that I need to be at the time and I do so willingly. This is what I am capable of. I am at all times aware of ( Read more... )

What does it take to give it all away? is it foolish or brave or simply honest? what reasons do we have for letting our guard down and letting people in? how do you let yourself become so vulnerable that one wrong move can cause your heart to shatter into more pieces than there are numbers to count? how do you let go? this has long perplexed me how ( Read more... )

if you wanted me to confess myself to you, what would i say. if i had to betray my darkest corners, deepest secrets what would they be. would it be that i am only what everyone around me is. could it be that im no individual, only a collection of others who call themselves the same. perhaps i would tell you that im scared. maybe i would say i do ( Read more... )

is it in our control the reality we face. do we make our lives what we want or are we only observers. when do you come to the conclusion that you are an idiot. when do you make the choice to grow up, grow out, grow old, and grow weary. is it one day you wake up and you are staring it in the face. there are many ways, too many ways, to arrive in the ( Read more... )

it is puzzling to see such beauty taken, to be hidden away. its hard to understand the reasons why those so young must cease to be. but we must remember that there is so much we will never know.how we spend our lives deciding explanations giving our take on this great world we're in. what more can be asked of such limited means. no more in my ( Read more... )

sometimes when im lonely i sit and i dream about the sky. i like to wonder about what different ways my life could end up like or how it could have been. thats why i like to ride in cars. i just look out the window and watch the trees pass and they buildings fly by and all i do is think. some times about crazy situations, like a child would. i ( Read more... )

i need someone who loves me. i cant do this on my own. now the problem that i face is finding some one to do the job. when will i be satisfied with the prospects that i face when will i be able to say this is good enough for me. im too picky when it comes to people i let myself love. what will i do when its too late to find anyone who is left. i ( Read more... )

let my eyes rest, let my heart slow, let my brain go white with the color of snow that appears between the black on the tv screen that plays out my life in a streched out movie scene where the players are my friends and the lines my every thought where the drugs come cheap and salvation always bought. take me down to the parasite city where you ( Read more... )