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Figured I’d do an update since it’s been awhile..and I have lots to talk about.
Where to start?
I emailed this to Alanna today..
So I was thinking about how she's different from anyone..and came up with this. Anyone I've ever been with there was never a moment where I didn't feel this emptiness in the pit of my stomach. It's the best way ( Read more... ) -
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Things seriously happen for a reason. I sit back and watch things unfold with the people I’m no longer with and I realize that I’m much better off. Not saying that they aren’t content with how their life is, but the way they choose to live it isn’t something I would be content with.
What brings me to write about this is that today I found out ( Read more... ) -
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She once told me she would never find someone to love her..cause they’re all messed up. I told her I wasn’t, and she said they all say that in the beginning. True..when you haven’t grown up. Instead of trying to convince her otherwise, I said, “I hope someone comes along and sweeps you off your feet” She said the same in return. Little did I know.. ( Read more... ) -
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You know I was thinking this morning..I’ve always feared loving someone, or feared things related to it. I don’t fear that right now completely, and I think part of it is because I trust her, and (not trying to speak too soon) possibly when you meet the right person, those fears go away? I don’t compare as much as I use to with other people, ( Read more... ) -
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Been awhile since I’ve updated. Kinda feel like sitting down and actually writing something.
Today I was thinking, I’ve always tried to control what happens in my life, and since I was fired, I’ve kinda put my hands up and have just tried to accept things and change the things I haven’t liked about myself. Since I’ve done that, my life has had a ( Read more... ) -
..in my own words..
I want an incredible love, the kind that's hard to find.
one that everyone is either afriad of or is searching for.
i've always been afraid of it.
afraid of what though?
that it will be taken from me?
i've wasted so many years on love that lead me nowhere.
so how will I know when I'm on the right path?
just follow my heart, that lead me to the same ( Read more... ) -
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Just some random stuff I’ve written the past week or so..I haven’t really sat down to write a whole post.
Right now as of today..life is pretty good. Something weird is going on with me emotionally. Not sure what it is, maybe it’s the weather, maybe it’s how I’m feeling and what I have been going through, and what's going through my head a lot of ( Read more... ) -
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I actually have a lot to write about..I should be studying for my math test, my chest feels a lil heavy, so I thought writing might help. Seeing my father this weekend, made me realize, I’m starting to internalize a lot of my feelings. I don’t want to talk to many people about what I’m feeling. But I’ve kinda been that way, and only usually talk to ( Read more... ) -
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I’m learning to do things the right way. It feels good. Unforeign to me, so there’s that adjustment I’ve been going through, but right now it feels good.
I’m shedding & growing in all senses - mind, body and soul.
On a side note, I forget how many friends I have. There will be 4-5 car loads of people going inner tubing this weekend. It’s gonna ( Read more... ) -
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So I’ve got some planning to do.
I’ll most likely be having my top surgery summer or winter of 2009, depending on my schooling, and my finances. I’m going to be looking at taking out a school loan for my surgery, and/or saving money from another part time job. Either way the money I make/take out will either go to school or my surgery (bilateral ( Read more... )