Live to Love, but Learn to Live ( Read more... )

So I moved outta the apartment.. yea that hell hole.. started counceling.. been doing alot better ( Read more... )

Sunday, June 11 2006 ( Read more... )

So I moved outta the apartment.. yea that hell hole.. started counceling.. been doing alot better ( Read more... )

So short stuff...

1. Lost apartment

2. Quit Hooters

3. Moved Home

4. Told Jake I didn't want to talk to him/Changed Mind

5. Jon.. yeah smart one

6. Life sucks - In counceling

7. Oxycotin, Morphine, Coke

8. Starting over...

Nina keeps telling me about how great her new bf is and all this crap.. Im so freaking jealous.. I never have anyone take me out or actually like me.. I can't remember ever going out wiht a guy that didn't use me... I wish I was someone that someone else wanted to be with... my heart hurts everyday that I have to spend alone.. I just don't ( Read more... )

oh yea and I kinda have a thing for Stevie.. and I told Jake alittle about Jason...

I want a boyfriend..

I don't think anyone has ever wanted me.. Starting with my birth parents.. I guess I could have been aborted, but there's a lot of guilt in that.. Kevin didn't want me.. he made that very clear for years and I just didn't listen.. Jake doesn't want me and the thing is I don't even know why.. I thought we had the perfect relationship and then he ( Read more... )

I don't think i want to ever date anyone else again.. I want to be with someone so bad.. but everytime I think about it I get so scared.. Everyone I have dated and put my everything into has always screwed me over.. Broken everythin I thought I had left in my heart.. I just wish I could curl over and die sometimes.. oh yea and I started smoking