vivid dreams all stating the same simple revelations, it's about time to listen. fear not, for the future has yet to be determined, and therefore only i can foreshadow my own failure, or success...(i choose the latter)

sometimes, i feel like i live my life in stages. i go into my little cacoon for a time, and reemerge a new and inspired person. this life cycle makes me feel a tad primitive form time to time, but then i realize that i don't really care. i am what i am, and who i am for that matter, it's just that sometimes i go through times that i don't want ( Read more... )

i've made an amazing discovery. i love to dance. now someone be a good freind and recommend good dance music to me, pleeeeeeease. that is all.

dreams from the past come back to haunt, old issues left for dead, long thought dead, but no, i am sinking, well, maybe not. i am aging, maturing, the overconfidences of the past inevitably intertwine with the unforseeable future. once thought life was well at hand, once, thoughts had their own hands, tools to keep themselves separate from a ( Read more... )

if someone could just go ahead and shoot me it would make my life a lot easier, just putting it out there. i'm pretty sick and tired of myself at this point, or more accurately, of what i'm doing with my life. a certain girl, faced with the same situation, had the strength to go with her feelings, to go far away, not to find herself, but to find ( Read more... )

so, today i awoke at 1 PM, a typical sunday wakeup time, expecteding nothing more than the initial stages of putting off having to drive back to new bedford, but 'twas not to be. i remembered(my mom told me) that it was my friend and neighbor jr's birthday, and not just any birthday, but a 21st. so yeah, i headed across the 25 feet or so of ( Read more... )

sitting here at my computer, passing time during a thunderstorm, i chanced a glance out my window. there, spread in a majestic arc from horizon to horizon, were not one, but two perfectly defined twin rainbows. awestruck, i did nothing but stare, taking in the beauty of a natural occurance that i've never had the ecstasy of seeing before in my 21 ( Read more... )

well, i'm, 21 years old. i'm not in college. i live in new bedford. i have very limited money. about time i did something with my life, eh ( Read more... )

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well, i just found out the my dad has cancer, and that it's in the later stages. that's fun, just what i needed to hear 3 weeks before the day when i'm supposed to move to new bedford. my mom is FREAKING OUT. my sisters are FREAKING OUT. apparently my dad and i are the only ones taking this news with any level of sanity, and let's just say it's ( Read more... )