How can one person fuck up sooooo bad? I did just that. I have been a wreck all day. I am not talking about the kind of fuck ups that people laugh off and are like, whatever. I talking about the kind that could end my relationship. I can't eat, can't sleep, can't do anything. Work today was the most horrible thing ever. Wiping away tears as ( Read more... )

So I haven't written in here in a very long time. So I thought I would update everyone on the life of Josh. I am still working 40 hours a week at Applebee's, and pretty much hating every second of it. I just hate the managerial staff we have there. They can all pretty much lick my ass. Newho, I am still with Justin, 4 months strong now. Yay ( Read more... )

It feels right to tell him I love him. I don't think anyone should have the right to tell me that my love is immoral. Only God shall judge me in the end. And I have led a good life so far. I don't even believe that this is my only life, I think I am coming back for another go. Hopefully as like an elephant or something awesome like that. Newho ( Read more... )

I am eating pizza at like midnight and I get a call from Sara Woodard asking if I want to go get some beautiful dank from Milwaukee, and I of course said yes. So we were using Juan as a middle man, and he fucked it all up and so instead of this guy just giving Sara his weed, he wanted to lose his virginity. Well you know she can work the brown ( Read more... )

So we were making out and he looks at me and says that he is falling in love with me. And I was speechless. I think that threw him through a loop, but I sent him the letter that I wrote him, and so now everything is out in the open. And I am sooooo happy about it. I need to start communicating fact to face with him, I can't be a coward forever ( Read more... )

I am fucking tired. Erg, I should be napping, but you know how it is. Webb's tonight, cuz it is Friday. Work tomorrow night and Sunday morning. Double on Monday, open to close on Thursday, Friday morning, Saturday night and sunday night. I think that is it. I might be giving away my friday morning though, just so you know.

He knows exactly what to say to make me feel awesome. Just read my myspace comments and then you will understand my warm and fuzzy feeling. Yay for him. I still need to send him that letter I posted. I love my ability to express myself with words, I just wish that I could do that face to face. I need to be more assertive.

FUCK!!! Mom, the

In the dark of night
where my pain is hidden,
I discover my true being
deep within myself.
I see the love and the adoration
that come from the one's around,
and the diversion of these emotions
away from my heart.
I understand what you are saying,
and I thank you all.
I love you all.

And I write. I write cuz I cannot express the words I want to face-to-face. I want to give myself to you, wholly and completely. I wanna let you into my brain, have someone fully understand my life. My ups and downs, my loves and fears, my world. And I wouldn't want that person to be anyone else but you ( Read more... )

And so it continues.... I am soooo over it ( Read more... )