So, I have not had a cigarette in two days, All I feel is sadness mixed with anxiety.
I liked the cloud of smoke I used to numb it. However, I must start dealing with being alive. I know I will like it. i have so much to do with what is left.

Made it to Chicago!!!! I loves the big city. YEEEEE HAAAAWWW

I had a good Christmas this year. I love my family very, very much. I feel lucky to spend time with them. I worry about my Moms, mom, my grandma. She had a heart atack on sunday and had to spend Christmas in the hospital. I do not like seeing that scared look in my grandmas face. I know that that time has come where death starts knocking more ( Read more... )

Well, here is to life. Ha, Yeah it is like 2:30 and I really should be sleeping right now. DAM YOU WHITE CHOCHOLATE MOCHA!!!!!! Anyways I have done decently in school despite the distractions of work and life. I feel a little restless. The previous goals I have set out have been stuck on the first goal. Quitting smoking. Bah, what a ( Read more... )

I have been ignoring my instincts lately, I am finished doing that. I have often ignored my instincts because I have tried to make everyone happy. Now, I thinks not. I am going to focus on what the best path is for me. I am going to focus on what I need to accomplish these goals ( Read more... )

Man, tomorrow is going to suck, here it is 4 Oclock and i am not in bed yet. Things to do, things to do, Tomorrow I have to get up and get my final group of shots for the Clarian job. Then I have my deutch class. I then proceed to my job at Clarian. Fun as the Clarian job is, there is no place for being tired filing papers. Filing can be ( Read more... )

Had a good time in Chicago, I really enjoy spending time with my family. I am really excited abouut going to Chicago for new years. Things always go well for me the following year when I celebrate new years in another city. Now I must set out a criteria for what I want to accomplish for my life. Bah, this could be a tough one. I am curious ( Read more... )

Indianapolis is a good place to live. Indianapolis acts like the worlds biggest town. Everyone knows or is aware of everyone here. I hang out a local coffee house on 11th and Alabama, called corner coffee. I have developed a new group of friends. Life is good here. I still have the usual anxieties living here, as I always have had, but I at ( Read more... )

Well I am alive and well. Things are going well. Progress Progress Progress.

Life has been interesting lately. I just came home from camping this previous weekend. It was a fun trip but, I missed not taking a shower every day. I felt so gross being around and in all that mud and not being able to clean off. It was also pretty hot as well. Never the less, Friday evening was pretty interesting and fun. I had gotten off ( Read more... )