moving out in two days.
kinda scary, i havent lived anywhere else since i was like not even a year old, so i dont remember anything else.
calling somewhere else home will be the biggest step ive taken soo far.
GOD please watch me, warn me if i stray too far.

my world goes black before i feel an angel lift me up, and i open bloodshot eyes into florescent white, flip the siren, hit the lights, close the door and i am gone.

hanging out with joey and crystal, being with tata, talkin to james, working, going to school, wondering the things to be wondered, afraid of the things that are, afraid of the things that arent, afraid of the things to be, yet generally content.

when i look at myself in the mirror, my penis goes rigid.

casey, did you post that comment on the "things said" post of mine?

i dont want things made easier for me. things are just hard, they just are. just because your not making them easier, doesnt mean that i dont appreciate things you do when you do them. i cant blame eveything on others, i just dont understand some of the things you do, as im sure you dont understand most of those that do i. anyways, im not mad ( Read more... )

things said in moments of anger arent always those that were really meant to be said.
apologies are sent to those who understand, and to those who dont.

i do care ( Read more... )

im soo stuck... i dont know what to do... i hate losing everyone, and i know its at least partialy my fault, but i fucking love her. how can i just stop because of how she is? shes different than us, she doesnt like hanging around people as much as i do, but gosh damnit. you just cant do that. it seems everyone wants me to choose even though they ( Read more... )

im soo far passed sick when it comes to the shit that is going on in my house. my brother does nothing, he treats everyone like fucking slaves he uses our shit and trashes it. he borrowed my x men 1&2 dvd set, no big deal right? just give it back right? no, i force him to go into his room and get it, and when he comes out, he hands me that, another ( Read more... )