so hopefully tomrrow will be a good day because today fucking sucked. in fact the past few days fucking sucked. the thing i hate the most is being ignored.
well good luck today josh. bc youve been waiting for this opportunity for 6 months.lets see how it turns out

i havent written this in a long time. i dont even think anyones gonna read it. in fact i dont htink im even gonna read it after i write this. but i just need to get this out. ive never been in this situation before ( Read more... )

it didnt hit me until today im not going to see some people for a long time. like not until today did i realize i was going to college.. even if it is rutgers im not coming home because its college. im going to college. i cant even realize how big that is. and how much it changes everything ( Read more... )

its only 2 days away...

ive never had a reason not to want to.. but now i do... cuz youre amazing...
i dont want to goto college anymore...

yeah i kinda stopped writing in this. idk if anyone reads it anymore. this summer evn though its relaly sucked.. well most of it at least.. has been the greatest summer of my life. just so much has happened a lot has changed ive changed a lot from not only this summer but the whole year. i saw mae/days away.. mae is fuckin awesome i love them ( Read more... )

i feel liek someone ripped my heart out of my chest.. i never once hurt you or lied to you or ditched you but i feel liek im treated like im a piece of shit on the floor that doesnt matter.. at least for this past week i have been.. and im sorry
i cant lose another friend but i feel like i already have...
im sorry..

talk about a great weekend.. but what am i getting myself into? what am i doing with myself?
http://www.johnkerryisadouchebagbutimvotingforhimanyway.com/
(awesome website) thanks jill

cuz maybee
youre gonna be the one that saves me
and after all
youre my

hopefully things are starting to shape up

i dont know what to do anymore.. i really dont. this drives me insane. i dont know what to do. its tearing me apart inside. ive never been in this situation before. why things cant just be easy like they are for everyone else doesnt make sense. a lot of things dont make sense. like the fact that two people who still do really like each other arent ( Read more... )

i cant take this.. i want to goto college already