Drew's mom finally put on the pressure that I knew was coming. She wants me back in school, which is totally understandable and I in no way fault her on those grounds. But I'm absolutely terrified and she realizes this, She sat and watched me enroll and I'm still shaking. Just the thought of it gives me a panic attack. Gods, I can only imagine how ( Read more... )

I've been wondering a lot lately what I may be doing at this point in my life, had I not convinced myself that I was incapable of achieving any semblance of what I percieved was greatness. Sure I could always justify the decision to quit to myself. Somehow it seems less painul to fail when you're giving little effort than if you really tried. An ( Read more... )

I just don't know about life right now heh :) So much shit to deal with I don't even know where to start. Well, I know I got to get rid of this anxiety, I have to, there is really no other option. I'm sick of being afraid of everything, it's sad really. I have to get a job if I want to move out with Drew, which I do. He's so good, I dunno why he ( Read more... )

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Today it looks like we're headed out to Cache Creek Casino which might be a fun now that I'm over 21 WooT Woo! Sweet God of bars and gambling :) Nah I probably won't do much, all I want if a fruity mixed drink and I'm cool :) That's all I've wanted since I turned 21 lol but all I get is shots of this or that lmao ( Read more... )

Welll well well, Wednesday was all that I had hoped for ;) I met KC and Danielle at their apartment wheich happens to be right next door to the Lion's Roar Mandala and we headed over at 7:00pm. We got there just as the teacher and the rest of the students were showing up so we got to say quick hello's before hand and go through the prayers with ( Read more... )

Well well, I had quite the holiday weekend. :) I rolled Sunday Night, stayed up all night and rolled again last night, it was great as usual. I'm really excited about this week. I should start process serving with my mom again and I will be starting the Vahjrayana(Tibetan) Buddhism meditation classes with a couple of friends. That's every Wednesday ( Read more... )

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A Quiz about your compatible religions,

Beliefe-O-Matic

My results:

1. Mahayana Buddhism (100%)
2. Neo-Pagan (86%)
3. Theravada Buddhism (83%)
4. Unitarian Universalism (83%)
5. Liberal Quakers (82%)
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