this is where i vent to you, hoping you don't do anything stupid when i say it. i'm not trying hard enough, when i can't remember stuff? maybe you're not trying hard enough to remember before you were twelve. "everyone gets tired of me" ..."i'll never get tired of you" ...well, i've already broken enough promises to you, might as well break ( Read more... )

sometimes i think something, and keep the thoughts to myself. lori once said, when i asked a stupid question "i think you already know"...and i just take that as a "yea, what you're thinking is right". for the last few weeks i've been thinking something...thinking i'm out of my fucking mind. i made a wish on 11:11, yesterday i think, that me and ( Read more... )

i think i found who i am. i am who i created myself to be, because that's who i want to be, and it's the skin i am comfortable living in. someone told me i wasn't myself. they were kinda right...but i've been lying so long, that this isn't a lie anymore. i just don't think they like me. she's like everyone else i meet, they like me for five ( Read more... )

you're laying next to me as i type this, and i don't mean in my dreams. if i get too close to you, you just tell me to get out of your space. i'm laying here in your bed, and i'm further away than i was two weeks ago. but as far as two people go, i'm getting closer to you every day. on christmas you slept in my arms, and you know it wasn't just ( Read more... )

today i woke up at bobby's house. right now i'm waiting on elliot to call me so we can hang out and jam. then i'm going to lori's tonight to hang out and jam. these are prolly my three best friends in the world, and i feel so priveledged to get to hang out with all three in the same day. hopefully elliot will let me borrow the acoustic guitar i ( Read more... )