Finally, REM mostly caught up. I hit snooze for 1.5 hours this morning, which I think is a new record. And, my sleep is still not fully caught up, but I did a great job on it AND got to have a little social time last night. I can have both.

Next Night:
YES. Sleep score of 94/100. Chart was very periodic. Exciting!! It said my relaxation before ( Read more... )

Alcohol
Went out drinking last night. Actually yesterday, all day. I left for a late lunch and just didn't come back. I'm a little hazy today because of it. A little off balance feeling. But, I feel pretty good overall! My head is here. I only got 6 hours of sleep and according to my watch, the sleep was terrible. It's ok though. I'll catch up and ( Read more... )

I realize, I have a problem with friends who only want "me" when we hang out every single time. I may dislike people but I am a social being and I'm a floating butterfly. And, my attention shifts and moves. This makes it difficult for guys who are interested in me and for friends who are terrified of, or hate strangers.

I also have a problem with ( Read more... )

It just occurred to me, I need some fire in my life. I need to light a match. I need to watch wood burn. Just need good enough weather or a tent, help setting up the tent, and a safe place to put the fire and then watch it burnnnnnnn.

Yessahhhh.

Does this make me sound crazy or violent? I'm not feeling that way at all. Fire is calming for me. It's ( Read more... )

I feel like I've had a busy day, a busy week. But, not really?

Starting at midnight, I worked as an operator till 6:30am. I headed home and found the dog stuck in between the couch for god knows how long. I picked him up, helped him downstairs, fed him, changed his diaper, carpet cleaned where he had been stuck, and talked a bit on the phone with my ( Read more... )

I absolutely love taking on lowly positions while at the same time being a higher stature. I like to keep quiet about my background and skill in said position so I can learn as much as possible about the job and the team. I don't pretend to act weaker or dummer than I actually am, however. Often times, that's a give-away.

I feel twisted, emotionally today.

Had a tiff with a ranger today. I let myself get too far with it. It's one of those, he started it, so I matched his energy scenarios. What's worse, is I didn't even record it due to a bluetooth malfunction. I've been making sure to document every interaction for the last year, but my car screwed me over.

It's a ( Read more... )

A bang on the door. A yell from outside. A grab of the wrist. A block. A hook around the shoulders. A lean in. An arm up. A follow. A mumble. A sneak kiss. A claim. A test caress. An offer. A mislead. A lie. A hold. An ultimatum. An ignore. An offense. A shove. A plead. A beg. A threat. An apology. A gift. A deception. A deal.

Avoidance. A redirect ( Read more... )

Primary Job: Observatory (Science Operations Specialist)
Job 2: Bar (Bartender)
Job 3: Observatory (Night Attendant)
Job 4: Casino (Texas Hold'm and Let It Ride Dealer)
Candidate: County Pool (Lifeguard)

Primary job, I get to learn the most, fulfill my need to be involved with scientific discovery, and develop my skills to some day apply for grad school ( Read more... )

This is the first time I've ever attempted a fast. I did it to get an edge on an upcoming race, to lose a few pounds, to cleanse my system of toxins, to work towards healthy longevity, to reduce the chance of disease, and to test the so-called ketones boost.

I decided not to tell anyone. The only person I told lives in another state and doesn't know ( Read more... )