so, i know it's been a long ass time since i last updated my journal. but where to begin, i met a boy at hydrate and we've been seeing each other for the last three weeks. it's great. he's a sweet heart. smart as hell. he goes to UofC for japanese intercultural studies and international law. he's also a swimmer, you know what that means...lol ( Read more... )

so, for the last couple of months, i've been working at the new job, teaching 1-10 year old kids french and spanish. in the beginning, i was happy. i was confertable. and i was smiling. and lately, since two weeks ago, i've feel like the smile is fading, the comfort is no longer there, and i am not happy. i've been feeling alone for a while and ( Read more... )

so, i have been so busy with the now job as a french and spanish teacher at language stars, that i haven't had any time for myself. plus, on top of that, two weeks ago was my ex's four year anniversary. i didn't cry any night cause i just don't have the streingth to. it hurts me and all, and i feel the same way i did that same year he died. ( Read more... )

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so ya, i haven't wrtitten in this journal in a long ass time. but, what to say ( Read more... )

sorry i haven't updated my journal in a while. well, where to start... i've been doing a little better financially and emotionally. i found a job at dave and busters downtown. i started it about a month ago. i'm a captain. basically, i have to greet the guest when they come in, and say good bye when they leave. i'm also in charge of the floor ( Read more... )

so, here i am still in venezuela, for another ten days. missing everyone back in chicago. i wish i could there, to make sure that everything is going well, and that my boys are safe and sound. my little darren just turned 18. god, i cant believe that he growing so quickly. by the time he turns 21, hopefully ill have already passed away, cause i ( Read more... )

so here i am, in venezuela. weird. i havent been here in four years. meaning i havent seen my family or my friends in all that time. it kind of feels good to visit again, but on the other hand, i miss my family in chicago. i worry all the time about my boys. i heard that one of my boys, kip, finally has a couple of interviews. im so happy ( Read more... )

so, for the last year, i've been a part of a gay family. i had a fabulous drag queen mother, who will remain nameless. he helped me in so many different ways, including teaching me how to love again, fter my ex-boyfriend died. little by little, starting a couple of months ago, me and a couple of the boys started noticing that mama wasn't doing ( Read more... )

so ya, xmas and new years were kind of boring. i didn't do too much. i spent time with my folks. and then went out to party. this week went by really quick. it didn't even feel like the end of the year to me. the sad thing about it is that i didn't even have enough money to buy xmas presents for my friends. i bought a little something for my ( Read more... )