Last night was in no way easy, but I have been thinking. And I know it's ging to be ok. It won't be easy, but it is going to be alright. I am hopeful and I see the things I no longer have to give up. I am going to be ok. Thank God, it is going to be ok.

So tonight I went to a nursing home w/ Kerstin and James ( and the rest of FCA was supposed to go). We handed out Christmas cards to everyone there and it was just really sweet! Most of the people were so gracious and sweet! It's amazing how a small guesture you do can make someone else feel good. The littlest of things can make someone's day ( Read more... )

Is it just me, or does life get HARDER everyday? There are just so many more problems. But sometimes, there are those moments that are just perfect and you never want them to end... I have figured out that the people we love are the biggest, most important part of our lives. Why is it so hard to show sometimes? I wish I could take away the pain of ( Read more... )

So I got this forward today. and it was SO cute, I just HAD to put it here (I know, cheesy right?) but just read it and maybe you will agree w/ me ( Read more... )

AH! I think I'm sick. and I HATE being sick. I just wanna sleep and just GET AWAY from life for a little while. Do you ever feel like that? Don't you just wish the world would STOP moving for a minute so you could catch your breath? Life is so stressful and hectic. It's hard not to be cynical at times. ah. I'm going to sleep the entire day or maybe ( Read more... )

I'm being dramatic. so sue me! I'm hurt. I'm pissed. I'm lonely.

Did you feel it too? It came immediately with the snow. It's almost CHRISTMAS TIME! My ABSOLUTE favorite holiday! Lot's of Joy and Giving and Friendliness. Twinkling white lights and the smell of pine, come on what's not to love? SNOW and HOT CHOCOLATE and SLEDDING and SKATING and NO SCHOOL and SHOPPING BAGS! it's the BEST!!! what is it about ( Read more... )

So today I took and shower and then cleaned my room. It feels so good to be clean. To put things in order. To get rid of the feeling of dread. I FINALLY feel like I have some direction. Nothing can hold me back now! I feel good. Life makes sense, sometimes. and right now is one of those times. For once it is all clear. I'm sad tho. Winter makes me ( Read more... )

There it is again....that DAMN feeling. I hate that awful anticipation. It tears me up! I dont like to worry, but anyone who knows anything about me knows that I am a worrier at times. and this has got me worried. Please let it be ok! I cant go thru another one. But do I have a choice if it should come to that? I really dont. What can I do about it ( Read more... )

Well last night was Harvest Ball. That was a pretty good time. At least until I got pulle over after the dance for not having my lights on and my licence had fallen out of my purse at the dance. I totally freaked out and I feel really bad cuz I think I kind of ruined the rest of the night for my friends. So I just went home so they didnt have to be ( Read more... )