well

[jsmooth123]

I really dont know if im going to be able to ride this out.. I know suicide is selfish ugh I havent been happy in months life has its ups and downs and everything but for the first time in my life im considering it. It sucks

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[mortuusanima]

well it's good to see YOU'RE still here after this post. *hugs*

thanks

[jsmooth123]

For the reply. *hugs back*

[mortuusanima]

might i add

"I really dont want to kill myself but nothings really working. Its the same pattern over and over -- has been for months..."

I feel the same way during the winter. you're lucky at least, you don't have to rebuild your life every May.

Heck, i'm really scared this year. I'm feeling so great and i know that it's all going to go away in november.

Strong

[jsmooth123]

Just by this post I can tell youre a strong person. You can make it.

Today I was *pinch* that close to driving into a wall.

Theres always something to life, the little things you know? Theres so much out there that I havent seen/experienced yet. If I ever killed myself who knows what "couldve been". Stay strong please. If you ever feel the need to talk my AIM is Jsmooth743

I wish people would understand depression a little bit more too..

Its not just a "dont think about it anymore, do something else yadda yadda yadda...you dont feel like doing anything..your energy is down.. etc etc.

If you ever feel like talking my AIM is Jsmooth743 and stay strong.

-Jeremy

Re: Strong

[mortuusanima]

i have a really oold AIM lol

I haven't had it on my new computer cause it's a MAC so i'm going to see if i can download it for mac.