As much as I hate to say it, I feel like no matter how many hours a day I practice, I'm just not getting any better. It's not anything with my practice habits - I'm doing everything I should. Even worse, it's not just music...I want to change a lot of things about myself, but I'm having trouble doing anything.
It's so hard to bear when I'm just sitting here, wanting to say something to her - but not knowing what. I never thought it would have such an impact on me, but it has. The pit in the bottom of my stomach just sits there and won't go away.
I have so much to say...but I'm so afraid of how she'll react that I can't even open my mouth.
I was going to upload these a couple of nights ago, but I've been a little preoccupied with the drama in my life. Anyway, might as well do it now - it's taken long enough already.