Life is always changing, some for the good, some for the bad and these changes seemed to always help us in some way or another when we look back on our lives and realize that we grow from all that we go through. Why does the pain of going through these things in our life have to be so intense? Why love someone if that love will just be taken away? ( Read more... )

So you think your doing okay. You think that things are slowly falling into some kind of routine. That life is somehow starting to work out and something happens, what I have no idea. Last night I put my iPod in the dock, put it on random and the third song that played made tears just roll down my face. And it hit me all over again - how much I  ( Read more... )

So its Wednesday morning, got up this morning after pounding the alarm clock for almost an  hour. I feel like crap was my very first thought this morning as my feet hit the floor. The more I moved the more I really agreed with my first coherent thought of the day. I made it to work. Yet, feeling worse as time passes. I hope I can make it today. I  ( Read more... )

A little something that I have written... its what was in my heart and in my head.. so it ended up here...

In a whirlwind I found you. At a time in my life so complex and uprooted, like a gleam of light you stepped in. I saw your face and was able to look deep in your eyes. Knowing deep down this was someone who would be very important to me. I ( Read more... )

Sara Evans - No Place That Far

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So it's Friday! The weather in St. Louis is awesome today. Cooler, humidity is low, there is a nice breeze. What more could you ask for right? Well I would LOVE to be able to be home with the windows open letting all this wonderfulness into the apartment. Work has been steady today but not quite as busy as it has been. Boss didn't stick around ( Read more... )

The Fray - Never Say Never Lyrics ( Read more... )

I can't say that its really a bad day. Just a day full of emotions - following a night full of emotions. Its draining but all part of healing I suppose. Learning to accecpt what has happened and try and move forward. Trying to figure out my footprint in this world and where I should be and where I should be heading. Adjusting to living by myself. ( Read more... )

Well nothing really exciting happened over the weekend. Friday, I took the day and ran errands and did my little bit of grocery shopping. Met up with my Mom, Dad and brother and sister in law and kids at costco. Its really weird how your family can really disappoint you at times. Like sometimes they dont want to hear what you have to say. Mom and ( Read more... )

I can't help but cry when I think of the girls and how much I am missing. How much I miss watching them or when one of them gets hurts comforting them, singing to them, Kailee and Kelci both would sing with me and it filled my heart with so much happiness. I miss going into Kelci's room in the morning and her jumping in her crib singing I love you ( Read more... )