She is many things to me ( Read more... )

 Something I should have learned a long time ago is to accept the things you cannot change. My life, as I am sure everyone else's, has been a series of ups and downs. Every time I start to believe that things are looking up, something drastic changes. This time I lost my job forcing me now to move out of the house I am in because I can't afford to ( Read more... )

Sometimes you run across a song that really just describes how you are feeling. The lyrics of this song pretty well describe how I have been feeling for awhile now.

I'm going home
Downhearted and hoping
I'm close to some new beginning
I know
There's a reason for everything
That comes and goes

But so many people are looking to me
To be strong and to ( Read more... )

So life is life ( Read more... )

So for the past year and a half I have been working outside of my normal techy kind of work. I do some techical support here but mostly its data analysis. I am starting to feel like the techy side of me is slipping away little by little. I do side jobs here and there but for the most part I dont get my hands on too much of the technical stuff ( Read more... )

So as I stated in my last entry I just found out that I had been cheated on. How much it hurt and how I am super against cheating ( Read more... )

I just recently found out that my ex of five years cheated on me throughout our relationship. We didnt have the greatest of relationships but I thought that she respected me enough to not cheat on me. Knowing that this happened makes me feel unlike anything I can honestly explain. We have been hanging on to our friendship because of the love that ( Read more... )

I heard on a TV show that music becomes a soundtrack for your life. Music can define where you have been, where you are going, who you have been and who you will become. That music can define situations and hold onto memories allowing you to relive these moments with a clarity that is unbelievable. I never gave this concept much thought but its the ( Read more... )

So okay, we weren't married, we didn't have a wedding... but we shared every aspect of our lives, we vowed our love for one another, we shared raising children, we shared all the big things and all the little things ( Read more... )

Holy crap the weather here is freaking cold and blah. I love the rain don't get me wrong but I am beginning to feel like a wet dog. Its so dark in the morning ... its amazing how dark it is really.  I still am not used to the drive. Its getting better but its still a very long drive every morning. But I do get to take little country/backwoods ( Read more... )