I'm gonna delete it, but for those of you who already read my last post... disregard it entirely. I've been in a state of temporary insanity for the past month ( Read more... )

Today was my mothers Channuka dinner. Jew food... yummy! Got some PJ's out of the deal... and a crisp $100 bill... so desperately needed, as I'm destituly broke of late. X-mas blows. I'm almost done with all my shopping. Still need to buy for the b/f and one other friend. Not too bad... after I dropped like $150 this weekend on presents. What a ( Read more... )

nothings gonna bring me down. Wedsday at 3:08pm I start my very first vacation with the boy. He won't actually be to my house till 8ish... but I've got to pack, and clean and all that fancy crap... but for the first time in our 9 month relationship... he'll be spending the night at my house.... YAY ( Read more... )

The week was so great. Saw the boy twice. Ate two full meals... two small salads... only didn't eat once... still lost a few pounds... work wasn't stressing me out too much... life was going ok... but alas... here I am the last day of my week at work and I'm dealing with the enevitabile asholability of everyone. It makes me wanna go home, not eat, ( Read more... )

As I said... I'm posting later... so I'm seeing this couselor. He's actually pretty good so far (1st visit and all). Told him about all my rituals (chopsticks, numbers, cutting things into miniscule pieces, nothing on my lips, etc...) I was totally honest. Even being the humoungous fat ass that I am he has reccomended me to an ED specialest. Thing ( Read more... )

God this place fills me with stress. All I wanted was a little bit of help. I'm burning myself at both ends... doing as much overtime as possible so I won't be home... so I won't have time to sit around and eat *note day 4 - no food. Tried to consume a cup and a half of coffee with skim milk this morning and involuntavily threw it up. Whats that ( Read more... )

Jeez, it's getting to sound like I never do anything. I do work... have been for the past three days straight... but alas, today is a day off. I think I walked a couple of miles today... to a doctors apt... then to my mom's. Visited with my sister. Getting a froggie tattoo next month!!! Color me EXCITED!!! It's a belated bithday present from my ( Read more... )

As a natuarally manic person the only answer is: clean. Clean the kitchen. Mop the floors. Vaccum the carpets. Clean the mirrors. Do the dishes. Wash the laundry. Organize my clothes. And when there's nothing left to clean... get out of my house... because I of course, can not be left alone with myself, because then I would go out of my mind... and ( Read more... )