thank god for my knight of aslan! (and no, that's not ben)

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for the first time in my whole life, i am without dogs. and gosh, i'm so so sad. i know i'm an awful pet owner and that i don't deserve to be sad, but i can't help but be sad and cry. I still loved him, you know. and boy, i really really miss him.

happy thanksgiving.

gosh, this weekend has really put my life into perspective. i'm so freaking lonely.

gosh, halloween was so nice and carefree. maybe it was cuz i was abe. and ben was a female nurse.

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i have the best friends in the whole world. they really make me feel so special and wanted. and not crazy.

i'm feeling pretty freaking out of it and antsy.

gosh, something has just sparked. i can't stop thinking. all i want to do is know and learn and understand. but not superficially understand. like understand understand. on a deep level where i come to my own conclusions. i'm finally in a class that is what college is supposed to do. make me think for myself, question my own ideas. i don't know. it ( Read more... )

i'm sort of tired of myself. i'm sort of tired of my life. actually, i think i'm just tired from lack of sleep ( Read more... )