it's been a real long time and my life is real different. it's good. just different as crap.

i'm leaving for rome on jan 15. and it just hit me that i won't be with my friends or my family or my boy or anything i'm used to and love for 5 months. and i've never been on my own before. and i'm nervous. and jan 15 doesn't seem so far away anymore.

it's been while. and it's been good.


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school can suck a d.

my roomates boyfriend keeps slapping me in the face and punching me in the gut. figuritively, of course ( Read more... )

everything is so good right now. with a month in europe with ben and ohudy hanging overhead, my spirits are looking way way up. boy, i really am one lucky girl.

ohudy and i just bought roundtrip tickets to paris. that is, we're going to europe for a month and going to have the time of our lives!

ps. i sliced my finger opened today and it still hurts like hell. wab. (what a b***h)

today has been one of the hardest, no, worst days i've had in a while.

i feel pretty sick to my stomach.

i'm feeling antsy and suffocated and weighed down. by school and life and parents and needs. by my unbelievable ability to shrug off friends and isolate myself under flannel blankets. i'm in a bind; really, i'm in more of a slump. steve carrel is getting waxed by a hot asian girl for the 2nd time today and i can't help but feel that it's some kind ( Read more... )

gosh, my life is so boring. i can barely even take it. sometimes i just want to squeeze my head so tight that i can't even think or breathe.