I know i haven't been there lately for any of u and i feel awful about it. I feel like a bad friend in a way but i'm enjoying the time i have left and making it less stressful on myself for my last year. yes i know i'm antisocial now but i kinda think its good in a way. last year i fought for everyone to stick together for our senior and junior ( Read more... )

Have u ever been so in love? My love for Derek is so amazing he is my knight in shining armer. He's my sun and my moon, my hope and faith to go on. I so wish i was with him right now i miss him terribley. Not being with him is killing me even though i'm only home until tuesday then i go to his house until friday. I have nothing to do, i mean my ( Read more... )

Life literally sucks! Why do parents think that two people should be together when all they do is bitch when they spend time together? I love Derek more than life itself and we're going through a lot right now with our current situation. I really miss my friends and i can't wait to see them when i go back to school. but this is summer and i want to ( Read more... )

Have u ever been so happy u could cry. I have many problamos right now but i think there is a man i can talk to about anything. I really miss him but it wasn't meant to be or was it. I have a great hot man right now and he's wonderful to me and i like him so much its just i wonder if he'll ever ask me out. I just keep wondering if i'm good enough ( Read more... )

Staircases spiraling down the whirlpool. Not yet ready to step and fall i cry as i slide down with a face of deception. I tear little but sigh big. Falling down a hill with big dreams i remember once i had a purpose to live. Can it be that i have no reason no doubt in my mind? Love is blind i heard but i once render the tears in my heart bleeding. ( Read more... )

I thought that love was pain and suffering and maybe that's why i haven't enjoyed it in a while. I gave some of my heart away once upon a time and never got it back. I feel alone and confused like I don't do anything right. I try so hard just to get ur attention and make u love me but i guess it wont work. I am so scared to let u go and wish that u ( Read more... )

Wow I can't believe i'm actually going to do this. I'm going to quit a job i just started, i mean i'm actually doing something i want to now just because of what others feel i should but something i want to do. I feel so proud of myself and yet somehow still ashamed and guilty. Its not that i can't do the job its that i do not feel comfortable and ( Read more... )

As I walk around the corner i grab his hand. The smell of his cologne and his sweaty palms touch mine. He told me he had to do something, he let go of my hand and i could hear him breathing so hard. He told me we would be together for a long time and that he would always love me. He started out saying he wasnt' going to let me go again, he did ( Read more... )

Sad days, sad faces, sad movies that make u wanna cry and all u want to do is lye in a bed full of dreams and roses. The effects of yesterday have hit today and all is sad in the world of glad. Now bow down my little ones and dream of deception while fairies dance in your head and sugar plums go to bed. Remember the good days and all will faze and ( Read more... )

Ever feel like nothing changes and u work so hard for the same shit and it never works out? I'm giong to give up on myself soon. The reason i went to the party was to meet new people well i did. I was attracted to this one person and i ended up being with him at the end. The whole time i was thinking to myself "why am i with him?", well i didnt' ( Read more... )