I wholeheartedly believe I will always be alone. I'm not enough to keep someone's interest or even catch it. I'm done trying, trying has gotten me nothing but heart ache. Alone. I'll watch everyone else find someone, form friendships and experience intimacy and trust while I'm on the outside, ignored and forgotten. I'm not worth anything to anyone.

What is the point?

I prefer unfeeling to this. Give me empty detachment.

Fuck you. Fine, forget me. I get it, there's something better and more interesting, whatever.

I'm working on returning the favor, forget you.

I can't help but feel like such a failure. At my age I should have accomplished more than I have. It's embarrassing and I can't help but wonder what is so wrong with me that I can't lead a normal life like other people my age. I'm stunted, stuck here. I feel like I'm pretending that I'm on my way to something but it'll never actually happen. This ( Read more... )

I'm so tired of always feeling this way.

When will it end? Will it ever change?

How long can I bear it?

I wish there was an escape. From this body, life, this person. Some door I could just walk out of and disappear forever.

Who would notice? How long would it take?

Would anyone really care?

I miss you more than anything. You're all I think of.

I feel so empty and alone without you.

I'm so afraid to forget you, you were amazing.

When will you come back to me? I need you.

You're all the same. You all see me the same. How does this keep happening? What do I do wrong?

Thanks for making me feel like worthless nothing. I'm not special, I don't matter. The interest is not meaningful.

Feel free to forget about me any time now, it's only a matter of time.

It will never be me.

Hopeless. Hopeless. Hopeless.

I'm not worth it.