i'm fucking miserable. put me out of this damn misery. i hate this. i don't know how to deal with this. i can't blame you because i can't stop loving you, and i hate myself for letting myself fall this hard for you. i don't want to think about you anymore. i don't want to call you. i don't want to talk to you. i want to be over you. but i can't. i ( Read more... )

so i'm not fine. i lied. i fucking lied. how could i possibly be fine without you?? you were everything to me and then you were just taken away from me. how can i be so used to having someone around for almost a year, so used to loving someone, and then just expect to drop those feelings instantly when you removed yourself from my life. i had ( Read more... )

please don't make me cry. please appreciate me and love me. make me smile and laugh. act like i'm important to you. tell me you love me. tell me you miss me. say sweet things to me when you are thinking them. tell me i'm beautiful. make time for me. make me feel like i'm someone special in your life...like you can't imagine being without me. that's ( Read more... )

FUCK PMS IN THE GOD DAMN ASS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I CRIED OVER CALCULUS BECAUSE OF FUCKING PMS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! that is all. i hate today. i hate it hate it hate it.

i work friday saturday sunday. yeah that's right. my fucking boss scheduled me on prom...after i asked for it off! and he consistently schedules me every ( Read more... )

once again. i hate being home. i got bitched out last night. my dad saw the scratches on my car from when greg ran into that snow pile (what a moron), and i took the blame for it. so for about an hour i got called careless, i can't take my car to ohio state anymore, and i'm not only a careless driver, i'm apparently careless about everything. and ( Read more... )

yeah...i don't really know what to say. a couple friends made me angry/sad today, but that's okay. it wasn't really a big deal i guess. whatever ( Read more... )

i'm a big baby. haha but sometimes, it helps me get my way...i'm really hoping it works this time.

solo and ensemble was yesterday. i got a 2 on my solo. i'll be honest i'm a little pissed. i hit every single note perfect, and the only thing that went wrong was i messed up my words twice. so somehow this bitch judge thinks that makes me worthy of a 2...i don't know. i've always gotten a 1, and apparently i got worse at singing this year. that's ( Read more... )

when i first came to central catholic, i intended to finish out a year for another teacher who had had to quit because of illness. i was living in mobile, alabama when my sister called and asked me to apply for the position. i didn't want to come because i already had a job and i had quit teaching three years earlier because i hated it. it was not ( Read more... )

i'm sad. basically all my goals since my freshman year were smashed today...how bout that.