Just like the title says, it's been a day.  It's been a week actually.  One that you really can't describe well.

Last week was horrible.  We had exams.  I felt so out of the loop.  I didn't really talk to anyone at all.  It was weird.  I read my book every lunch hour.  Alone.

Horrible up until Friday night, at least.

I went over to Andrew and Randy ( Read more... )

1/15/06 - 12:46 a.m.

I'm hurting so much right now.  I'm just going to go out and say it.  I'm.  Hurting.  Terribly.

I'm trying.  Really, I am.  I shrug it off.  I act like it's no big deal.  And it really isn't  big deal, but at the same time, it is a big deal.

I was reading a new book I got tonight.  It's about this girl who loses her best friend ( Read more... )

For those of you who get mad at when I do it, I hope you're not disappointed when I tell you that when I felt terrible last night, instead of going off on a mad search for scissors, a knife, a razor... any sort of blade... I went to my room and wrote a few sentences in my journal... it wasn't positive, of course... but I think writing out ( Read more... )

Some questions that have been on my mind for the past few months....

Why does everyone seem to be so happy when I feel so fucking sad?

How many Tylenol do I have to take before it begins to ease the ache I feel inside?

How many times will I dye my hair before I realize that it won't change any of the faults I have?

Why am I not good enough?

Why me?
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Tonight definitely made up for the week I had.

Friday was alright.  I left English and saw Zoie leaning against the wall in the hall.  When I asked her what she was doing, she said, "Waiting for you!"  The day before I promised I would eat lunch with her.  So she came with me to get my orange out of my locker at the end of the hall.  She grabbed my ( Read more... )

I've been in bed since New Years Eve.  Sick.

Truly.

I came home and went straight to bed.

Today was my first day back at school.

It's funny when you come back and find out what people have been saying.  Apparently the two days that I was still home sick when everyone went back to school following Christmas break, my whereabouts went unknown ( Read more... )

It's time for me to actually say what's on my mind.  No more "I just don't want to talk about it" or "I don't know what to say" and "I don't know"....

My dad came home from work today.  He came upstairs to say hello.  Then he started talking to me.  He said he's been telling everyone, so he wanted to tell me too...

He went on to tell me that he's ( Read more... )

Work was crazy tonight.

I haven't even counted my tips yet.  I'm too tired.  I'll do that tomorrow.  I have to cash a paycheck also.

Other than work, I didn't do anything today.

I fell asleep around 4:00 a.m.

I woke up around 12:30.  Went to work at 6:00.

It was freezing last night.  Or at least it was to me.  I wore pants and a long sleeve shirt ( Read more... )

I had to work tonight.

Mary let me go at around 7:45 because it was really slow.

That's good because I got to go out to Gaylord to see Andrew's show.  All Odds Against played.  And then Anchors For Reality played.  Andrew gave me a big hug, picked me up and spun me around.  Then Randy picked me up and put me over his shoulder.  I laughed, though ( Read more... )

Christmas was wonderful.  It was a nice morning opening gifts with my family while we made a fire.  We watched the Pistons-Spurs game.  Pistons won 85-70.  It was a lot of fun.  We went over to my Aunt Lynne and Uncle Dane's for dinner.  That was a lot of fun too.  My cousins were playing with all of their new toys and everything.  Grace pulled out ( Read more... )