I had an okay day yesterday.  A horrible night last night.

Yesterday morning.  At school by 7:45 for my AP biology exam.  Finished it at 11:30.  Fell asleep for the 10 minute break we had.

Last night.  Fucking horrible.

So not only am I shunned by the guy I am fucking in love with, the guy who is supposedly "in love with me" decides to fuck me over ( Read more... )

Well, here is my long awaited entry.

FRIDAY MAY 6, 2005

I woke up.  Nervous.  Put on my black skirt, shirt and sweater.  Kept my hair down.  Went to school.  Was nervous the whole way there.  Nervous the whole day.  Anxious.  Kyle wasn't there.  I don't know why though.  And truly, I missed him.  A lot.  I was really hoping he'd be there... oh ( Read more... )

Ignore the title.  This is just a fairly quick update, and I wanted the title to explain it, but I didn't want to name my entry something really dumb and pathetic like "Quick" or "Speedy" or "A short update" and blah blah blah such such such like that.  So, it's lightyears.  Something fast, right?

I will tell you this. Today was wonderful.  I haven ( Read more... )

Well, tomorrow is the day.  And I am so very nervous... and anxious.  I suppose I don't truly know what I'm feeling, really....

I went home at lunch yesterday.  Felt like utter shit.  I couldn't be at school any longer.  Exhausted.  Headache.  Feeling like throwing up.  I figured it would be better if I just went home.  Plus... I felt plain old ( Read more... )

As I said yesterday.  I have lots to write.  But the main point I wanted to get across so everyone could know is that Melissa is coming home.  On Thursday afternoon.  And I get to see her on Friday....

Yesterday school was a drag.  It just was awful.  I was nervous about going and talking with Brenda and Rita about Tim's funeral and Melissa coming ( Read more... )

This has to be the shortest entry ever.  I have to write a history lecture for tomorrow.

Jourdan and I went over to Brad and Rita's tonight.  Brenda was there.

We talked from 7:00-9:45.  About a lot.  I promise I will fill you in when I get the chance... most likely tomorrow...

Melissa is coming home on Thursday.  At 1:30.  Brenda is picking her up ( Read more... )

I woke up this morning at 9:38.  I couldn't fall back asleep.  Which is very weird for me.  I usually sleep until 12:00.  And I always fall back asleep if I wake up early.  But for some reason today I didn't.  So I just laid there in bed for a bit....

And at 9:45, the phone rang.

My heart leapt.

I grabbed the phone.

It was Aunt Rita.  She confirmed ( Read more... )

The phone has rang three times today.

Ring number one.  Jeremy's friend Isaac.

Ring number two. Megan.

Ring number three.  Kyle asking if I was still going to the movie.

Today has been a numb day.

I'm still waiting for someone to call.

I called Brenda at home.  No answer.  I called Aunt Rita.  No answer.  I called Jourdan.  No answer.  I called ( Read more... )

Melissa's dad died.

I just got home from Ben's house.

My mom was all funny looking on the house... her face was twisted... I walked in.  Automatically knew something was wrong she told me to come over and talk to her...

"Nina, I think Melissa's dad died..."

I automatically burst out into tears.

She showed me the paper for a confirmation...

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Yes, that's right.  Crying gives me one hell of a headache.

And guess what.  I have a terrible headache.

And guess why.

Yep.  That's right.

I cried.  So much.  In the past half an hour.

I'll give a brief run through of the day first.

Had lots of fun in AP biology.  A study session with Becky.  We kept shouting out random answers and such.  It was ( Read more... )