he has passed away
due to age and cancer
i will miss him always
all the memories
he carries them with him
and i carry a set aswell....

i want to have fun tonight
i''m going out to coffee with a friend
so far
but that may change with a single phone call
from my dad
i may have to go to south dakota
i won't know until
i get home
oh and of course today i have to go to my therapist
i don't want to go.
she makes me uncomfortable.

i kinda like being back
with the friends
friendly hellos
and smiles
but none of them know
what has happened to me
i am ashamed
but it wasnt' my fault.

i watched The Crow
i really like that movie
along with the second one
i want to see the third one
damn i'm bored

views from the window
of only a white powder
it is spring
snow was to be packed away
until next year
boredom has struck with avengence
nothing to do but stare outside
at only a blank screen
like that of a movie theatre
no colors
no voices
only that of my head
my own little play
i hope there is a good ending
and alot of action

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damn
thats all i can think of saying
i have so much hate
but then again
i don't really care