Oh, boy!

[jules_11]

Tomorrow is my surgery, and I'm a nervous wreck. It's actually amazing that I've made it 27 years without having to have anesthesia at any point, so perhaps I'm lucky?....I'm having all kinds of irrational fears, which is quite typical for me, but really, I just want tomorrow to be over with. I guess it's good that I'm teaching today so it will

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[mb_1978]

Everything will be ok. Anesthesia is one of those things that seems like a monster from a distance, but then once you've had it, it is intriguing and somehow comforting (someone intervene if I'm the only weirdo who feels this way). The only time I was put under (for a procedure I won't gross you out with here), it was actually very liberating. Letting go of everything was actually very soothing for me. This is not to say that you will have the same experience, but maybe you will, and if that's the case, you have nothing to fear but the possibilty of major relief and at least a little bit of weirdness and disorientation, which can also be fun if not for anything other than the break in monotony

[jules_11]

I made it out fine! Thanks for your words of comfort; they definitely helped.

It is nice to go home with our significant others and see where they came from. i've only met steve's mom once, too, so i'm looking forward to spending some time with her.

what are your thanksgiving and/or christmas plans? maybe we can find a time during those breaks to hang out?....

[tyratae]

cornwall is beautiful. i'm sure, in january, it'll be beautiful and also cold as hell, but, hey. that's why those fields are full of sheep making warm woolly sweaters!!!

i have nothing comforting to say about anesthesia b/c i'm a coward too & haven't ever done it--whcih is why i won't get my wisdom teeth out, against my orthadontists' better judgment! but mb sounds like she knows what she's talking about, so you should listen to her. especially since you don't get to drink anymore; sounds like a lovely alternative!

you'll be just fine, sweetie. &, hell, by the time you read this probably done anyway, with england to look forward to! :) *hug*

[jules_11]

i thought you had been to cornwall. all i've heard are great things about it. i'm very excited; plus, i'll get to hang out more with steve's mom, as i've only met her once.

and i thought you were a fellow non-anesthesia person. i know we've had the wisdom teeth discussion, as i've never had mine out, either, much to the detriment of my teeth, but whatever. the stuff they gave me yesterday was actually quite pleasant; it was like taking a nap. now, i'm much less scared. it's called "versed" if you ever need it....

thanks for thinking of me!

[west_wind]

Hi, sweetie. I realize you're probably done with everything by now, but I wanted to let you know that you've been on my mind all day.

I hope you're recovering peacefully now and that S is babying you and catering to your every whim. List of possible things you could make him do: laundry (hee!); foot massage; back massage; play with your hair; take care of feeding and walking Cairo for a week; cook any GF food you crave; bring you movies; run you a warm GF bubble bath; amuse you with entertaining stories and jokes; grade your next round of papers; bring you GF breakfast in bed; ummmm...I could go on.

Feel free to tell S that I took the liberty of creating this handy dandy list. Maybe even print it out and let him choose one item a week. I'm sure he'll be super appreciative of my thoughtfulness! ;)

Anyhoo, take care of yourself and let us know how you're doing whenever you get the chance, if you feel like it.

(((hugs)))

[jules_11]

i read steve your list of stuff he could do; he laughed, but didn't do many of them--boo to him! he did take care of cairo and gave me a massage, but that was it. i think i'm owed this weekend :)

i came out of things just fine; it was like taking a nice nap. steve made fun of me, though--they got him as i came out of recovery, and he said that i asked him 10 times how long i was out, and then i cried, and then i told him how nice the nurses were. i remember nothing of that. apparently he had to help me get dressed, too--i think i also drooled on myself. i must have looked very attractive to him :)

i do remember my doctor chatting with me, and he said everything looks good. the biopsy results will come in next week, though, so i'll know more then.

the cool thing is that he took pictures of my tummy, esophagus, and intestines and gave them to me. now i have something to put on my refrigerator! :)

thanks so much for your love and caring; it means the world to me. i hope all is well with you!

[west_wind]

At least you didn't disclose any embarassing secrets to S! Drooling is bad, but drooling while also admitting that you peed all over the gym floor in first grade would be worse. Not that I or anyone I know ever did pee all over the gym floor in first grade! Ahem