Mandis been stopping by lately and chatting with me while i do things, she was over while i got ready for work on saturday and yesterday she came by and hung out with me while i cleaned out my closet. I wont lie, its been nice, when its just me and her, its plesant conversation. Yes its different with us, not knowing all the details, and me not ( Read more... )

I swear i have not forgot about Livejournal. Ive just been busy as fuck with work and trying to have a social life and trying to sort out this mess of a life i seem to have. I promise to work on it. I actually dont mind my job, Kaydee is cool, craigs not bad, and Scott..is scott lol. I like being around kids all day and i also like to feel like I ( Read more... )

lifes been crazy. i got a job finally, thankkkkk god. yeah its a shitty one, working at Laze-R-race in the mall, but its a job making 7.50 an hour and i work tuesday-friday this week for training, the guys were all pretty cool and a job is a job, i have to make this work. I'm planning on moving to Washington, as soon as i can afford it. Kyle is my ( Read more... )

Nothing like the douche bag people i use to call friends to make me not wanna ever go home again. Yes its April fools day, and sometimes some of the jokes are funny, but most the time they are not. But what jokes my old friends are, they honestly are such fake people it makes me really sick. I dont understand the point of being nice to someone you ( Read more... )

I made it, i'm in one piece. Thank god! I was tempted to text john and rub it in his face that im fine, then i remember how not worth it he is, and ignored it. Seattle is beautiful. I love it. I love being here, I love downtown, I love all of it pretty much. I don't care too much for the rain and the cold, but it hasnt been that bad honestly, Its ( Read more... )

im glad to be leaving, but of course i cannot ever look forward to anything, my mom had to let us know we're going into forecloser. AWESOME. it sucks but i guess its been along time coming, nothing like stressing me out more then i already am. great. ughh bad night. today/tomorrow is my moms birthday/ my last day at home. i've honestly got mixed ( Read more... )

John flipped out on me today, not sure how he found out im going to see kyle, not to sure that i really give a fuck. He told me he hopes my plane crashes a few times, and that if it lands somehow both times he hopes i get mugged and pregnat, and he insisted on telling me that he cheated on me way more times then i thought he did, and gave me some ( Read more... )

Sarah and Kyle put their money together and bought me a ticket to seattle. i leave in 13 days, for two weeks =). they are the most amazing people ever. ever ever. im soooo excited

I need a fucking job more then anything right now. hopefully i motivate myself enough to go lookign this week, hopefully i can think of some places that might be hiring by monday and apply. I need to study this week. No more bullshit, i need to get in the habit and acutally stick to it. I need to stop bumming around and actually get my fucking shit ( Read more... )

hes gone. =( suckyyyyyyyyy. best couple days of my life?

I leaned agasint him while trying not to cry today. We stood outside by my car. The air wasnt cold, but the breeze felt nice. I felt terriblely sick, I donno if it was me getting over the flu or the butterflies id had all the time he was around me, We kissed, a few times, and hugged tight. ( Read more... )