i wish i could hate you half as much as i hate myself.

[julietxrocks]

i think he really likes/ed me...but last night he got my letters about how messed up i am...and now he hasn't been online today...and i'm worried. He of all people shouldn't change his mind because of my situation, expecially since i've said i'm depressed from the begining, among other things....but i'm still worried. i guess i'm kinda looking

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[xbroken_mindx]

i hope he isnt scared by it and i hope it works out...

[julietxrocks]

whoops, it's supposed to say he of all people SHOULDN'T***, because he's got, erm....issues of his own. That's why i like him. man and i've been freaked out all day because i haven't talked to him and i don't know if he's ok...and it's really bugging me.

[xbroken_mindx]

:/ hopefully you'll get to talk to him at some point..

can you call him?

and dont freak out. things go wrong when you freak out.. so dont..

[julietxrocks]

i won't get to talk to him today it seems...

well, i did call, and it was busy forever, then his mom answered and said she hasn't picked him up from the camp, and when he's at the camp he always gets online to talk to me, and he didn't at all today and that's what got me worried...but he's not really allowed to talk on the phone much anyways...rentals don't trust him.

...it's hard not to.