new journal. forbiddenxlovex

i swear, i hate my brain. HATE IT!! i'd finally stopped thinking so much about him. yes him. the him that continues to be the love of my life. i hate him so much. ok, so i'd stopped thinking about him so much, because i have a crush on someone else, and i remember how nice of a feeling it is to like someone. too bad it scares me so much. so of ( Read more... )

today was SO exciting. wow. ok, so i was talking to Flip, and i was planning on stealing the van, driving illegally, picking up Flip, and going to the post office. Flip was nervous about this cuz he didn't want to get in trouble with his rentals, so he say's he'll think about it, so i start working on the chores i have to do. So Zack calls and ( Read more... )

there seems to be a trend lately....

...boys falling in love with Julie...

...this is bad, this is VERY bad!

i like my zack. he called me 5 times yesterday. <3 i wish i could call him today...but his parents are weird about that stuff. i can't wait to see him tomorrow. i'm a bit scared though...not quite sure how it will go. I got a new monitor yesterday...well, new for me, it used to be my dad's, but i'm glad because my other one was really small and ( Read more... )

i have a boyfriend ( Read more... )

i think he really likes/ed me...but last night he got my letters about how messed up i am...and now he hasn't been online today...and i'm worried. He of all people shouldn't change his mind because of my situation, expecially since i've said i'm depressed from the begining, among other things....but i'm still worried. i guess i'm kinda looking ( Read more... )

yep, so i almost had a boyfriend, then Zack decided that he wanted to get to know me better first, and now i think i've got him really liking me, he said we'll probibly be going out after sunday, which is when i'm supposed to go to his house and have kissing lessons (seriously), and it'll also be the first time we've met in person ( Read more... )

yesterday. lots of rain. very bored. zack called. more bored ( Read more... )

yesterday I talked to James, then i was feeling pretty crappy, Carlie called so we got it worked out so we could hang out, so i went over to Carlie's and we talked, and hopefully for once she'll keep a promise, i don't want to get hurt again. I introduced her to some music and met this guy Zack and so we're going to talk about our issues with ( Read more... )