So, I've gotten a few opinions, on nothing all that particular ( Read more... )

Frustrated, though I should know why I signed up for. If I even signed up. I wish I only had just signed up because then maybe my heart wouldn't be utterly in it. Utterly engulfed by a human who may never want it. I go back and forth on feelings, but this underlying feeling is always there. He told me he didn't want a girlfriend. So why am I still ( Read more... )

Here it is again, this overwhelming feeling that I can't quite place. It seems to spread throughout my body, starting from a point. Slowing spreading, and then faster ( Read more... )

"For one human being to love another is the most difficult task of all. It’s the work for which all other work is mere preparation ( Read more... )

An odd thing when a birthday comes along. At least for me. I start to look at myself wondering how much of the same person still lives in this body as was here last year ( Read more... )

"Don't make nasty comments about yourself behind your own back ( Read more... )

I'm currently sitting in my room, typing with my hand that is burned, at the desk that I painted, in the chair my father got me for free at his job and with a dog who loves me so much more than I could ever know. I just woke up from three separate dreams that bled into each other, creating one big and uncomfortable dream. I'm now listening to an ( Read more... )

self, selfish, self-loathing, self-preservation, self ( Read more... )

For the first time in I'm not sure how long, I had no dreams of battling, of chasing, of saving. I didn't need to help anyone, I didn't need to kill anyone. I just was. I was happy, I was calm, I actually feel like I slept. I feel great. I feel rested ( Read more... )

Always running, always fighting. It seems to be the theme for this version of myself. This time, the world had just ended, save the women and children. The men are always going to be against me. The faceless savages running aimlessly with weapons. Until they find out that I'm the one saving the others, then it's all missing eyes on me. We're on the ( Read more... )