toxic isnt the right word for it but something close could describe the current living situation. stress and worries about my brother, and my health insurance, and my diet, and my stomach, and my finances, and my FUCKING CAR and then to come home and find my room has been subtly but definetly fucked with while i was gone, which is a disturbing ( Read more... )

the irony of rich people asking me to vaildate them every day. but this is a bit closer to hollywood, so less people get the joke. speaking of which, i miss tower with every fiber of my being. R5 opened a few days ago i guess, which is awesome, but would be even more awesome still if it was local instead of up north. something isnt sitting ( Read more... )

california pizza kitchen sucks. the closer to hollywood i work, the snobbier and more demanding the customers. being seated at a booth is like driving a fucking land rover for these people, materialism, cushy, exactly what they want, but doesnt make their lives any better. they'll actually wait half an hour to sit their asses on something plush ( Read more... )

for all my fans, waiting since january for an update (mmhmmm ( Read more... )

i think its funny how people always get so excited around the new year. for some reason, they always believe things will be different next year. somehow, the dropping of some huge shiny ball means things will instantly transform themselves. well, guys drop TWO huge (shiny?) balls, and pretty much nothing changes. theyre still children. don't ( Read more... )

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so i got laid off friday. the only thing the GAG rep would say was "budget cuts," which i knew was bullshit. one of my coworkers had personal beef with me so he egged the ignorant guy on with lies and shit which i knew was happening, but i was gonna be the better man and ride it out because a source told me nothing was gonna happen. well, it did ( Read more... )

fuck the box.
the shimmering, translucent box
which contains my humanity
and laughs
as i endlessly reach toward its contents
only to find my hand hits its wall
every time.

so i've got like 3 papers, a debate, and a photography assignment due by the time school's out. plus i'm losing my job within a month and i havent gone christmas shoppping (except for myself maybe HA!!). to top it off, my grandma is in the hospital. reed & i are essentially drifters now. well, i should talk, but its shitty no matter how you ( Read more... )

the manager at Tower Long Beach is a douche bag. little prick has nothing better to do with his time than go out of his way to bully me on the Tower website. i wish i could go down there and kick him in the head or something. some people need to fucking go crawl into a hole and rot by themselves, needle dick loser.