Yesterday I finally started to get rid of the things I had from years of trying to be a girl/woman.  Maybe not the best timing, the first holiday after my mom died, well there was Christmas but that was so soon after that I was still firmly in shock.  I cleared my bathroom of all the hair clips, make-up, lotions, and my curling iron that had been ( Read more... )

There are no answers here.  I could google questions all day and night and not find any answers.  I am as spineless as some crawling creature.  I cannot make a stand for myself.  I have denied myself for so long, but denied myself of what?  That is another question.  If I looked it up, what would I find?  "what have I denied myself?"  I looked, I  ( Read more... )

I finally have time on the computer since my man got his own.  I can get at the damn thing.  I think that I could become addicted.  Maybe I'll start gaming.  I'm such a noob though.  I'd probably shoot everyone on my own team ( Read more... )

I thought that I had done this before, but apparently I didn't .  Maybe I didn't finish? Maybe this is something new?  I'm wishing right now that my son went to bed at his old bedtime.  There goes my parent of the year award ( Read more... )

Sometimes I feel like I've just woke up.  I'm 40 years old and feel like I've missed huge chunks of my life.  I don't understand it.   Sometimes I feel like a little kid.  I wonder if this something that everyone goes through but no one talks about or is this just me?  I feel like I have been incredibly self absorbed for my whole live, completely ( Read more... )

I've given up smoking for just over 6 weeks now ( Read more... )

Another day, taking an extra kid to the parade tonight.  Santa parade, or parade of lights.  It's too early for this stuff.  Anyway, I thought that I was going to have tomorrow with nothing to do but play video games and knit, but I've got a show to go to, blah

I'm starting in this new on-line community.  I've recently left another one that I felt just didn't fit with me after about a year.  Looking forward to poking around and checking things out.