I'm done with these tangled messes...

...or at least i'm trying to be.

you know that feeling of being so worried about someone and wanting to be there for them so bad, but they don't want anyone around and you know you just need to let them be?
well, it's driving me crazy right now to the point that i'm about to cry...

It's only 6:40 and I'm thinking I might head to bed soon. Is that okay?

Oh yeah, I'm back from Amsterdam... I may write about it when I'm not jet-lagged anymore, but I may not, so ask and I'll tell you all about it.

why do I always put myself in situations to get hurt, even when I know that it'll just end with me getting hurt?

I leave for Amsterdam in a matter of hours. The end.

Tonight I went to my very first professional hockey game. it was so f-ing sweet! we got to sit in a suite ('cause jacob's got some pretty sweet connections) and omg, it was just so much fun. they lost, but it was in the shootout which means that it was a really good game. It was kind of weird though watching a hockey game that jacob wasn't ( Read more... )

for some reason i feel like it's all ending again. i don't know why, but i hope i'm just worrying to much. then again, there really was nothing there to end for a second time...

:(

I was rewinding the film in my camera to take it out so i can develop it tomorrow, when suddenly it hit me... the passion i once had for photography that i recently tried to recapture is more lost than ever. it's no longer this amazing art to me with every step in the process being so mystical. it is now a bland, boring, step-by-step process as i ( Read more... )

you know, if i wasn't a girl my life would probably be so much easier.

so if i had a sex change would they change enough that all those wacky hormones that make me more emotional than guys would go away too?

meh, i don't wanna be a boy...

I was watching a movie the other day and one of the characters was talking about how some people enter your life just so they can leave it and there's no stopping them, the only thing you can do is hope to slow them down a bit ( Read more... )