my insides are slowly turning to ash ( Read more... )

my train home from work today hit someone a few feet away from the palo alto station. this has been my worst nightmare for five years.

i really didn't think it would be this hard. i feel so ridiculous calling you more than twice a day, just because i want to hear the sound of your voice. i hate when we run out of things to say and are left rehashing "i miss you", and how i still call you anyway ( Read more... )

i can feel myself falling for him. it's scary, but i can't stop. and i don't want to.

we kissed goodbye today at the bus stop ( Read more... )

i'm having body image issues for the first time in years. here, next to the beach, everyone is either huge or tiny-- and most of the people who go to this school are pretty fucking short. there are hardly any medium-sized girls like me, and it feels like shit. unlike many of my friends, i don't exercise obsessively and count calories... it makes me ( Read more... )

ani rotza lehitahev.

i'd like to think that loneliness isn't the human condition, but some days, i'm not so sure.

2:12 am ( Read more... )

stuff is better. i talk to most of my friends about once a week- i miss them, but it's manageable ( Read more... )