I always use to see pictures on the internet with one word placed in them somewhere..."Lost".I understand now.Lost.

I dreamed that we were still friends too.I dreamed that we ran around the "when?" with Brittian and Roxi.I dreamed I still had adventures.I dreamed.

I finally did it, became what I hate.I cheated.I'm no better than them.Never was.I just thought I was different.I am them ( Read more... )

I am getting out.I have awaited this for 9 fucking years and gone thought more bullshit that I should've gone throught.Finally.Out ( Read more... )

Randy-Why don't you ever lesson to me?
Junk-I don't know
Randy-All of this could have been avoided had you done so
Junk-...I'm sorry
Randy-No your not and that's the sad part all it all.You'd do it all over again wouldn't you?
Junk-Yes but not like this
Randy-Do you think it really would have mattered?
Junk-......

BECOMING X

You can keep breathing,
I only fall when you are near me,
Incomplete; I only talk when you can hear me,
Keep dreaming, can't wake up until I'm sleeping,
Lost on me; close to something I'll never be.
Close to something I'll never be.
If I just stay here,
Close my eyes can you still see me?
Obsolete; very nearly something to see,
Still ( Read more... )

Friday is my 20th birthday.Yeha 20.my family is going to be out of state.And I get to spend it all alone ( Read more... )

I love dreams.Even if they're bad.Because they're not real.I have found that if I start to think of something right befor I sleep, I can usally dream about it.Guess what I dream of these days.

I hate this.Every minute.I don't know much longer I can take this.I keep thinking of the people I'd hurt.
But what about me?When is the pain of other secondary too mine?Is it?

"The inhale that makes the exhale so much better"-#8

they say that time helps....it's just making it harder.I want to life less now than when it happened.I will never love anyone the way the I love her....So I guess that means I'll never love...I don't understand what I did wrong.I thought we were happy.I was happy.She, may very well be another story ( Read more... )

fuck it