im getting rid of my computer with a modem today (in case the first entry saying this didnt show up) so i still have my newer better one, but it wont have a modem on it for at least a month or so. So, i wont be posting around here. I am doing really well though so no one worry, im really fucking happy actually, just stressed like a motherfucker ( Read more... )

saw my good buddy josh leeeee last night *nod josh* down at the good ol' conservatory, watched the most badass band in the whole world play, Skies Fallen! heheh, okay a little exaggeration there, but whatever. It was a fun time ( Read more... )

pretty pathetic of an accomplishment, but hey, after about 2 and a half, 3 months of no sleep and constantly having some drug or another to be on to chill my moods, its something to be happy about. Im a raging bitch right now, im tired as all hell, but at least I am capable of doing it, which is something I knew all along, I dont know how many ( Read more... )

ive lost all my ability to trust. I no longer have a sense of safety with anyone, and because of this i've shut myself off to practically everyone in my life. I dont even feel trust around my family anymore. There are still a few people whom i spend time with, but that doesnt mean at all that I trust them in the slightest. I guess I've finally ( Read more... )

geeze, im so fucking worn out and tired, and i have so much shit to get done still today. I need to get some laundry done before i go in to work, which is going to be a little hard since the fucking washers keep eating my quarters at the laundromat. bullshit! then i have to go to work, and when i get off ive got alot of shit i need to get rid of ( Read more... )

just sitting around, watching josh play guitar trying to entertain myself online until its time to take him to work ( Read more... )

i definately had a good night last night =) I guess everyone at work has a right to be suspicious of me and a sexy someone now, heh. Fraternizing with employees... Im a bad bad manager. I'm not gonna complain though ( Read more... )

fuck anhydrous. that is the worst shit i have ever fucked with in my life. Smoking and snorting fucking glass is definately not a goddamn good thing.

on a good note, i just woke up from a 20 hour nap with josh! Really strange that it seems something may come out of our friendship... definately unexpected, but also very welcomed.

shit is so fucking stressful with me right now, i don't know who the fuck my real friends are and who the fuck just hangs around for other reason. I honestly dont know who the hell to trust anymore, as far as 'friends' go, Josh is really the only person right now i trust at all, and thats alot of shit to get into, as to why. I dont know though, ( Read more... )

lotta shit been going on with me lately... not anything new really, or too exciting, i've just been really busy. Me and a good friend of mine have been doing a very good job of taking care of our habbits, so ive been busy with all that shit. Went thrift store shopping the other day, me and josh bought a ton of shit, I got like one pair of pants ( Read more... )