One year ago yesterday I started this journal. Everyone had their own reaction to it. Mine was a comfortable one. I wanted a diary so I kept one. I looked over my calendar yesterday and saw I've on average updated once a month or twice. When you think about it that's all you really need isn't it? Unless you lead the most exciting life in the world ( Read more... )

One day you wake up and don't know how you've gotten to where you are. A day ago I was sad and now I'm alright. I'm very flighty. Jumping from one extreme emotion to the next although believe me I do try to keep it leveled. Last night I was in quite a mood. It's awful when you doubt yourself and the things you care about most. I needed something, ( Read more... )

I woke up today and automatically it was one of those, "What am I doing with my life?" days. Of course it's foolish to have those day at all unless you are doing nothing with yourself. I am probably doing too much with myself, certainly not nothing, so why I have these days I'll never know. It must come with being human. Financially and career- ( Read more... )

I've got regular pubs all over the city. There's this one that's small where I know all the bartenders and waitresses. It's close and convenient and they play lots of The Cure. I'm not a picky girl so I go there a couple times a week. They've got an upstairs and if it's open, I'll go there. One night I went with about 7 other friends, we took up a ( Read more... )

Four weeks. Sorry about the wait but what more can be expected of me? I put this thing away and forget sometimes. I'm getting old. Aging well, though, which is more than I can say for some of you sorry bastards ( Read more... )

I don't know if it's just me, but I find myself getting caught up in the same circle of people for years. You watch soaps where everyone's sleeping with everyone, every week someone's with someone who was just with someone else. And you think, that can't be right. People can't really function that way. Well I took a long hard look at myself and the ( Read more... )

Talked to my mum the other day, don't see her too often but we talk. My parents have never been "parents" really. They split a long time ago and my dad's in Australia now. So they're two separate worlds I've got to deal with instead of grouped together as one like most people have it. Yeah most parents are split but mine are so far apart I forget ( Read more... )

Been distracted lately and I don't mind so much. Going through a selfish phase. I can have many acquaintances and few friends, surrounded by people everyday and come home alone every night. It's a zone I slip into every so often, since I started living alone. Now it's catching up to me. Messages are piling up, calls not returned, parents annoyed. ( Read more... )

I woke up to find I have no clue what anyone is talking about in their latest updates. Apparently it was someone's birthday recently, but I have a headache so there're more important things to think about. I skimmed all of them, even my favourite people. It's one of those mornings where every little thing is bothering me. The only solution to these ( Read more... )

I just reread all my journal entries and noticed two things. I must have woken up one day and decided to use paragraphs, because the first few entries were very messily thrown together. Or maybe I just started writing longer entries. Something else I noticed; I have mentioned Alex exactly one time, only when referring to his outer space fetish. ( Read more... )