New Year's Eve Festivities

[juskasalminen]

New Year's Eve 2002. Tavastia

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[spiritual_guru]

spanking challenge? now that sounds interesting.

[juskasalminen]

Did you forget already? I am just watching, though. Rufus gets to do the spanking.

[spiritual_guru]

hey, i didn't forget, i just... selectively remembered. yeah. ;)

do i have to wear any kind of cutesy outfit for this? because i really don't look cute in a schoolgirl uniform.

[juskasalminen]

I think you would look great in this.

[fab_boy]

I felt your discomfort, but I didn't know what I could say to make it better. All I could think to do was keep you close to me so you would always know I was there.

*slow smile* And what a challenge indeed....

[juskasalminen]

There was so much going through my head that evening, thank you for standing by me. It was what I needed, just silent reassurance and your embrace. I could not have begun to speak about it without getting overly emotional.

I forgot to mention in my post how you took care of me after drinking much more than I know I should have. Thank you for that, I imagine I was not much fun to be around. I hope it did not make the evening a complete waste for you.

[fab_boy]

*laughs softly* Always the test of a new relationship.... "Will you still love me after you hold my head over the toilet?"

And the answer is, 'of course'. You will most likely have to do the same for me someday. I still enjoyed the evening. It was great to finally see HIM in action and to meet some more of your friends. A most unique New Year's, to be sure :)

How are you feeling today, love? Hopefully better than yesterday, I hope.

[juskasalminen]

Well, now you have seen me at both sides of the spectrum, at my best and at my worst. If you are not afraid in any way, I am thankful.

Thank you for being their on New Year's Eve, I needed you by my side, I hope you realise how much this is true. I suspect it was somewhat odd for you, but I think the experience will probably help you understand me a bit more.

I was feeling better yesterday, somewhat groggy, but better. I feel like I have not been the most entertaining person to be around as of late, there has been so much going on in my head, I am sorry for that.

[insaneserenity]

yes I would love to be added to your friends list :-D

[juskasalminen]

Thank you. I have added you back.

[g_gershon]

Happy New Year, Jussi. I believe you owe me a phone call. I miss you.

[juskasalminen]

Happy New Year, Crimson. It has been a while, hasn't it? I miss you as well, I will plan to call you soon, my dear.

Re:

[g_gershon]

It's been weeks. I'd pout, but I'm not that type of woman.

[juskasalminen]

I think I have been off in my own little world, drawing hearts on the wall. Thank you for giving me the wake up call to pull my head out of my ass.

[teddythompson]

I wish I was able to explain to you more of what was going on in my head or more of what was going on in Ville's head, but unfortunately, I know neither. I'm sorry that most of my time here so far has been spent quietly alone, I know we discussed it being something other than those things, quite the opposite of them, really. Either way, maybe we could sit down for a cup of tea and talk a bit later. Just the two of us? If you would like to listen I think I may be able to finally rid my head of all these horrid thoughts. Maybe just tell you everything that has happened since the last time we sat down and actually talked. Getting it all out into the open may end up helping me instead of confusing me more like I had previously thought.

Thank you for asking me here, Juska. For taking me in, and for doing everything you have done.

[juskasalminen]

Either way, maybe we could sit down for a cup of tea and talk a bit later. Just the two of us?

I would really like that, Teddy. I would like it a lot. I know we talked about some things and your visit, and I feel like I have been a bit of a bad host for letting some things slip away. Do not feel like you have to tell me everything that is going on with you, I do not want you to feel any pressure. However, if you want to, I am always happy to offer a sympathetic ear. Do not forget that you are one of my very best friends and I cherish that.

Thank you for coming, Teddy. Thank you for allowing me to feel like I helped in some small way.

[teddythompson]

You haven't been a bad host at all, not even close. In fact it's probably the other way around, I have been a terrible guest. I'm sorry again for that. I don't feel any pressure in telling you anything, I just feel as if I may be able to get it all out of me, and you are the first person that came to mind that I wanted to tell it to. You are one of my only best friends, and even if I am not able to get out everything I hope I can say.. I just want you to hold me like you said you would. That's all I need from you Juska, and I love that you have always been willing to give that to me.

You help me so much, Juska. Even when we are screaming, and angry at one another.. you help me more than anyone.

[juskasalminen]

I am still rather upset from our talk early this morning. I am not sure if holding you made things better or worse. Your sad face is still imprinted in my memory and I feel terrible about it. It is amazing how different things can be over time. I almost feel like our roles reversed a bit, I know how you are feeling. Actually, as a whole, I do not - as much as I try to understand, I am not sure if I ever will be able to know all there is to know about you. That makes sense, though. People need to keep certain things guarded. But please know that I will try. You will always be my friend and right now I want to hang onto that, our friendship.

You help me so much, Juska. Even when we are screaming, and angry at one another.. you help me more than anyone.

That was really beautiful. I…never knew that you felt that way. My ear is always open to you, my shoulder is always available for your head or tears. Please tell me that things are okay today.