New Eyes

[juskasalminen]

The world looked different this morning when I awoke. Sitting up in bed, drawing my legs close to my chest, all of the hard edges of the furniture appeared soft and smooth. Rounded with an almost fuzzy edge, almost like how things are seen when dreaming. I will think and dream of you as I always have. Colours popped out, three dimensional in

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[vanessa_amorosi]

Good to hear you have each other back. Have fun, don't cry...

[juskasalminen]

I am happy we are finally back together. The tears are hard to explain, I get moody at times. Sometimes I feel like I fail him. I hate that feeling.

[teddythompson]

How long can new eyes tolerate the same photo? I'm not sure how to take this post as it all sounds bittersweet.

All I can to is try to be my best, even if I know I will always fall short.
With the love you convey, I don't think you could ever fall short.

Don't let insecurity tangle your mind, it will taint your vision and sour the experience.

[juskasalminen]

I suppose it depends on what the photo is that you are looking upon. The same would be true for old eyes. Everything in life is bittersweet; I know that you of all people know this.

It was more of a general statement. Perhaps it was not. I am really not sure. I always have such high expectations of myself, too high. It always leads me to end up disappointing myself.

I could really say the same thing to you about insecurity, could I not? It is hard to change the way one is, the person they have become.

[chippen_dale]

Everyone falls short. We're human and imperfect, so we'll never measure up to whatever ideal we want to be. And that's okay. Nobody wants a perfect love because it's boring. Imperfect love, love with flaws and fights and miscommunications and misunderstandings, is more rewarding because it forces you to work for your relationship, to talk to each other and reveal each other's secrets, to fail and then try again because it's when you stop trying that everything falls apart.

[juskasalminen]

I hope you are correct about imperfect love. I am not sure if love could ever be perfect. It can be pure, but not infallible. I agree with what you are saying. It is in the times of troubles that one grows, sometimes blossoms. Hopefully this will be true. I worry too much, I second guess a great deal. At least I am willing to admit my faults.

[psy_vampira]

It seems strange to me sometimes how people can love each other when I've got this whole insensitive shell about me...Every relationship I've been has ended because of my need for being alone so much (it's what I'm used to), and it's very very odd because of the fact that I don't even miss it. I guess I'm just not a person for love...yet, if not at all.

But I'm glad you're happy, and wish you luck.

Couch fairy sends her wishes too.

[juskasalminen]

I do not think wanting time to be alone is insensitive. We all need that, I know I do. Perhaps not missing a relationship is not the best of things, but maybe the time is not right. You are still young, yes? No need to get boggled down in a relationship when you can enjoy your youth.

Thank you for your kind words.

I believe she has visited me lately. Send her my regards.

Re:

[psy_vampira]

Yes, but sometimes I need it too a rather extreme scale, and there's no way of telling that to someone without making him/her think it's because of him/her...Yes, I'm still young, but able to look younger (blessing + curse = it will be strange when I'm 18) Oh, trust me, I don't want to get boggled down right now, it's just sometimes I get confuzzled. =/

You're welcome, very muchly.

Regards sent, and she waves and says hi.

[juskasalminen]

Perhaps you could create dating business cards, somewhat like a personal add, or a tag that comes on a hair dryer. *grins*

[valo]

Yes.

[juskasalminen]

Which part?

[valo]

b and c, definitely. Maybe f as well. Oh, fuck it: All of the above.

[juskasalminen]

I am inclined to agree.