The Light at the End

[juskasalminen]

It is amazing getting to know your lover so well that you are comfortable in his or her presence. Initially, my stay in America with Rufus was about mending and healing. Winning back one of the most important relationships in my life, a relationship that I am personally to blame for tarnishing. There is a great amount of shame associated with

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[drew_barrymore]

Those idyllic days are wonderful. I think that they are something that you have to grow to appreciate. Five years ago I never would have found as much pleasure in them as I do today. Maybe contentedness is something you have to grow into, or that ages like a fine wine.

[juskasalminen]

The days are probably a bit more relaxing for me as Rufus' has been working on his album during the day. However, I think he appreciates the fact that he can come home and not have to think about it and just have a smile evening with me. You raise a good point about contentedness. I believe there needs to be a level of willingness to slow down and not take life so fast, and there are some people never learn to grow into it, which is unfortunate. Peacefulness almost the antithesis of being young, at least in the view of society. When you are young you are always told, "go, go, go!" Yet there is a lot to be said for stopping to smell the roses.

[psy_vampira]

Reading this entry, I get the song 'flow' by Nuno stuck in my head...and I'm not quite sure why. Maybe you should listen to it and then see if it's appropriate...?

I get many songs stuck in my head easily.

[juskasalminen]

I will have to find the song. Do you think it is a good thing or a bad thing that you have that particular song in your head?

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[psy_vampira]

Depends on the mood. If you had msn, I could send it to you.

[fab_boy]

someone that shakes the core of your primal being

*slow smile* Who.... me? My goodness... you're going to make me blush, love.

I can't even begin to express how much I appreciate you staying here as long as you have. I think this is closest to how would feel like to live with you all the time. ... It's so good to be able to experience the day-to-day with you, and not just an interrupted series of intense reunions. *smiles* Not that I don't enjoy those, but I also want to be able to do regular stuff with you.

And you're adorable when you're fumbling with chop sticks. Almost as adorable as when you play it for me. The impish look you get on your face when you play that is priceless.

I love you.

[juskasalminen]

*slow smile* Who.... me? My goodness... you're going to make me blush, love.

Of course you. I know you know this very well and do not dream of telling me otherwise.

I agree that it has been quite enjoyable to have this time together. I was not sure if it was something we would have the luxury to have, but some things in life you just have to make time for. This I think is especially true now more than ever, it is a matter of priorities. And it is fun to see you scurry around the house, hair pointing in every direction as you try to get some caffeine in your system before taking off scruffy and disheveled for the studio. *warm grin*

Next time we go for Chinese and you make me eat with chopsticks, I am going to have you feed me! The impish look when I play is just me trying to concentrate. It is not the easiest of works to master.

I love you too, Rufus. Thank you for inviting me into your life and every day world.

[fab_boy]

*grins* I wouldn't look so dishevelled running out the door in the morning if I didn't have such a tempting man in my bed to distract me! ;) I'm willing to sacrifice hair-styling time in the morning if it means I can enjoy you more....

I know... this time we've had is something I never thought we would have. ... things are so wonderful now that I forget that you came here expecting to be turned away. *softly* It was impossible for me to do so. And even if I had had the strength to do it, I'm unbelievably glad that I didn't.

*grins* I'll feed you dessert instead. I might end up spilling some on you by "accident", though ;)

[juskasalminen]

Oh no, do not blame your scruffiness on me! Excuses, excuses… You know, no one expects you to be posh all of the time, plus you look fabulous with flat hair and a five o'clock shadow.

Me being glad that you did not turn me away would be an understatement. I would like to think that something bigger than ourselves was responsible for where we have currently found ourselves, it certainly feels like it to me.

Always so naughty, I love it. I like when you feed me too, now I understand why you seem so clumsy every time you feed me.