hey all you people not reading my diary ...yeah i got in a nice lil debate about howgoths and punks and skaters arent soo different ....hehe with a punk ....kinda funny cuz she wouldnt see where i was coming from claiming i knew nothing ...which i dont disagree with theres alot i dont know but im trying to learn...anyway the whole common thread of ( Read more... )

if i had something other then a broken heart to look at ( Read more... )

maybe the day is today when my light will fade from view i dont know what m gona do i cant stop thinking about you but its never gonna be the way you talk to me or lack of trying i know youll never want me like i want you...and why did you put me thru put me thru all this shit i feel like ive been swimming for months in feces ive started to swallow ( Read more... )

i hate everything in my life right now ....theres almost nothing worth living for ... the only thing worth living for is death ...kinda ironic huh? ....just another day another hearts been crushed...again ...oh well should anything change? prolly not fuck everything at the moment ....do i even care anymore...nope i dont ....odd ow ive lost all ( Read more... )

yeah well nother day nother newsong i downloaded ...mmmm deathboy ...gotta love his music.... this song soo says exactly what i feel ...you love me you just dont know you do i tried to love you why are you spitting in my face i put you on a pedastool you put me in my place.... yeah thats what im feeling extremem hatred for most people ...theres a ( Read more... )

yeah so hopefully my picture posted if not oh well not like anyones gonna look at it anyway but still i want something to work ...anyway might have lost one of the most important people i my life today ....my poor friends always wind up finding out im not perfect ...sad but true...im only human after all...yeah whatever ...i didnt do anything wrong ( Read more... )

nothing new its been a couple days since i wrote yes im feeling like shit but im trying something new imn gonna stay up for acouple days running on cappucino and maybe some pills or coke or the other hard drugs i dont do simply because i donthave to work now since i got liaad off between 1 week and a month ...shitty my bills arent paying ( Read more... )

well its been awhile since i last wrote a entry...damn my grammar is bad ...anyway now ive turned 20 ..big fucking dealnoone cares anoone wants to care ...people can go to hell....i hate them all ...theres a few i dont hate ...but for some reason they wanna try and make me hate them ....fuckin hell...why do people suck so mcuh ...sometimes i wish i ( Read more... )

well its my first or second entry im not sure which my bladder is about to explode and my life sucks CHEER!!! yeah well it always hurts when a friend doesnt care but it hurts worse when they dont tell you they dont care they just ignore you and pretend your not there ...i hate people people are greedy self serving sons of bitches well all prolly ( Read more... )