i feel so hurt. so betrayed by him. im sure this is all very normal being my first real breakup from my first real love. it was real. we looked at each other and promised to love only each other. no matter what we loved each other and we were goning to marry and be together. and i believed him. with my whole heart i believed his every word. and now ( Read more... )

im pretty sick of everything right now. tonight will be my last official night in the band room. im sad and happy to see it go. sad because i've had so much fun living here. i really got to live and grow up here. when im old and look back at good times i'll think of the room and the people i've become friends with who i know i never would have ever ( Read more... )

A new chapter of my life is about to begin. when i look back at who i was and look at who i am now i realize just how ready i am for a new beginning. how else should i feel after being disappointed with the past?

im in class. its so boring. if anyone is out there COMMENT

i watched rosanne last night. it is one of the greatest shows EVER!!! it was the very last episode. Dan died. omg i cried. i bawled. ryan was on the phone with me and was telling me its ok and im bawling. how could they do that. why would they let dan die. its TV. everything is suppose to be happy ( Read more... )

surgerys over. i have a huge hole in my body. its kinda sore but it really doesnt hurt that bad. ryans been helping take care of me. i love him so much. NO WORK FOR A MONTH. WOO!

im having surgery july 5th. thats a tuesday. have sympathy for me.

~Jessi~

i have a cyst on my spine. i've been gonig to a doctor every other day for about a week so he can clean it out because its infected. at first it hurt so bad that i couldnt take it but now i mean it still hurts but not as bad. i've been out of work for a week. i go back on monday. i have to have surgery to remove it at the end of the summer. i have ( Read more... )

so i quit the daycare to work at ryans and i love and miss my kids so much. its not even funny. so i got back to the daycare to visit them and sandy is such a fat chicken bitch. she runs and hides in her office and get trish to answer the door. (sandy is the boss/owner. when she needs to fire an employee she gets trist or mrs kay to do it. if she ( Read more... )

ryan had cheated on me in it. it started out with him introducing me toa "friend" of his. i think her name was ashley, but im not sure. he said they had been friends for a while and i didnt think anything of it. well like the nect day i went to his house and into his room and they were in bed together. OMG!?!?! i freaked and left and went home and ( Read more... )