today was grrrrrrrrrreat!! jason came over and we hung out like old times. it was amazing. we kissed... it was just as breath taking as the first time.

i cant stand it anymore! i fucked up. i still love him but hes taken. no turing back now. 3 months. just friends...here we go again

today was shitty.. i got an a- on my world studies class. i cried so much because of that. i was so mad. then i come home and me and my daddy get in a fight. but were cool now. he bought me a pack of ciggarettes to apoligize which was a good thing because he got me my ports!!! i didnt really get to talk to bryan at all today. he sent me a ( Read more... )

things just werent working out. we felt the same so we ended it again.. but im pretty sure this times for good. we didnt take it too hard. well thats how it seems. i still love him but not in that way. we had are time together but it wasnt what we wanted. i hope we can stay this way and still be bestfriends. ive done you wrong so many times and ( Read more... )

I have so many mixed feelings about so much crap. like i still love nick but i dont think im mature enough for the kind of relationship that he wants. i wanna be with him i love him. but i just dont want to hurt him and it really bites. like if i tell him this im not sure what he will say. but like i like 2 guys also. and im pretty sure one of ( Read more... )

theres this really cute guy i like. dunno if he really likes me but i hope he does. nobody comments on my stuff... does anyone even read it? oh well. i hope me and this guy goes out because he is super fly!!

I havnt updated in a while so yeah i think i should update. well me and nick are broken up again. But like I wanna stop smoking pot for him and me but i dont think its working. i dont see me ever quitting. but oh well if i dont quit with in a week or so the im just gonna get back with nick and all that jazz and maybe he can help me quit. i dunno ( Read more... )

so cha im sending nick away for 2 days. yay!! lol j/k. so yeah christmas was good. i still got to get some people gifts so yeah. i say so yeah a lot. but anyways... i have been stoned for 4 days in a row. i gotta stop. i gotta get in shape for softball because i really wanna play. so i gotta stop smoking. imma go im tired its late so im ( Read more... )

So cha this christmas was pretty fucking sweet. i got an effing phone. leave me a comment if you want my new number. blahhhhh me nick and mom are watching this queen dvd that we got her for christmas. Freddy Mercury said "fuck you" it was the shit. i about died because you never would think of him saying the eff word. so yeah anywayz... im ( Read more... )

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