i hate money...money is the source of all mans suffering...anyways...i spent 350 on books for school yesterday and they didnt even have one of them...then i got a mani pedi for like 43 bc i needed to relax but my fucking sis had to get flowers and french tip and shit so hers were 57 n she only had 47 on her card so i had to pay for hers and now i ( Read more... )

yesterday's water plan went down the tubes at 1...mona took me to lunch...we shared a very nummy salad and this italian quesadilla thingy...then i had a bite of dark chocolate...then i made the mistake of takin the girls to get food...chicken nuggets french fries and nachos supreme...although i puked most of that up...i also had a skinny cow and ( Read more... )

everyone has been saying to me since i was a little kid that i should be a model...well why the fuck not...i would like to be...i dont wanna do it for a lifetime career but i would like to give it a go and make the money...the only thing is that i am about 20 or 30 pounds overweight...i need to work on that...here's the plan ( Read more... )

my comp was broken for a lil while but its already been over a month since i posted...i dunno...im just always running around you know?....and i have taken very well to trying to avoid my problems than actually face them i dunno....ive been relatively happy lately except for my demonized sister...but other than that everything is pretty good...me ( Read more... )

Well I have my computer...finally...it's soooo hott!!! eeeee...I will actually get to post all the time instead of once i a blue moon...I don't even know what I posted last..basically...me and jon r still on the sexy fritz...it's just like weirdness....i dont kno what we are exactly...im not even sure if I'm happy with it all...there are times when ( Read more... )

i want my mom so bad...u dont even know...i miss her so much...i hate hearing her cry everytime i talk to her on the phone...ugh...n poppi is dying from some sort of weird blood thing so yea thats fabulous...n i have so much going on right now...i have my errands to run today ie therapy n food wit kailey n dropping off my application at the school ( Read more... )

i hate life so much right now...i feel so just worthless when it comes to things that actually matter...i dunno...i cant concentrate on my hw...i know im fucking myself over but i just cant do it...i just stare at the screen...i dont wanna do it...i have to but i dont...n i have absolutely no clean underwear bc i havnt done my laundry in like a ( Read more... )

wow sorry....i hadnt realized itd been so long since i posted...but not terrrrribly much has happened....jon ended up going to sleep after the movie wit his rents on sunday so i just chilled wit jessy and marcus and tyrell...i always feel like the odd one out when i chill wit them...tiny lil white girl chillin wit big hispanic and 2 big black guys ( Read more... )

Michelle was so late last night...i got really worried bout her...like saturday night is mine and michelle's night u know?...its our guarunteed time together everyweek...otherwise it just doesnt work...i thought she was sposed to be here btwn 1030 n 11 so when she hadnt shown up by 1120 i was gettin worried...tho i dont think that watching the nip/ ( Read more... )

I need comfort...I need hugs...I want Jon...Can't have Jon...he needs to get his act together before I can have him again...I don't know what to do I am so lost the majority of the time...I love him but I cant be with him for the sake of my own dignity and sanity...but I am in complete lack of sanity without him...and dignity...fuck I lost that ( Read more... )