we were talking about you again... doing what we rarely do... reminiscing about you... about the life we used to know that seems so unfamiliar now. for that brief moment i was happy... i was truly happy.... she was speaking about how lazy you were with putting money in your wallet and how you soooo wanted your vw fox... the fox that later became ( Read more... )

perpetuating... oscillating... i feel like i'm a pinball ricochetting against walls and pins... sometimes hitting all time high scores but most of the time, getting stuck in a black hole.. an abyss that i can't get out of.... game over. i get no free ball to try at life again. i hit so many peaks and troughs.. but mainly i hit the latter. the ( Read more... )

it's been a long time since i wrote in here. well since my last entry, i've gone to virginia for 3 weeks, came back... started school and have been consumed with it ever since. my aunt had a baby boy anthony, and so i've been helping out with driving andrew and adrian home from school ( Read more... )

i'm sooo fuckin lazy. i haven't done jack shit at work except make a list... wtf? oh yeah and chat online.

my left hand has been buggin... like my fingers and my wrist... arthritis or carpal tunnels?? iono... my hand feels really weak though.

it's been a long ass fuckin time since i wrote in this. so yeah, i've been obsessed with everyone lately, more specifically a certain girl from SF. iono what's wrong with me... i need to just forget everyone. maybe i'm just lonely. iono... i hang out with people.. they're fun. SF chick is cool though. i like talking to her when she actually ( Read more... )

so yeah... sf was rad. i went with lotus, liyah, kat, kelly, and ally. we left on friday at 9pm when we were supposed to leave at 6pm.. but dykes... bunch of laggers. i drove the whole way and we went to lotus' best friend's house to crash. we got there at like around 2:30 am but didn't sleep til 4am.... kelly, ally, kat and myself woke up at 9 ( Read more... )

Tanya sent me this linky thing.... and I adopted a fetus!!!


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I have nothing to say really, but I feel the need to say something. I dunno if it's this emptiness I'm feeling that is driving me to write in this thing, but something is. Everything seemed to disappear in the matter of 2 months... not really disappear but more like disintergrate. My quarter century crisis is manifesting itself in the form of a ( Read more... )

Went to Kat's shindig on Saturday night. I wasn't much in the mood to go, but Kat told me to go and Lotus said she was coming. Since I asked Lotus to go, I figured I should show up. I didn't feel like coming because the situation between me and Tracy bummed me out. I didn't want to associate with anyone and in a way, I still don't... well there ( Read more... )

I got a random IM from someone off of myspace last night... she was very friendly... turned out to be Kat. That silly girl! So she and I were talking and I was talking to Tanya too... and we all decided to go to the movies last night. We all met up at the Marina Pacifica in LB... well Kat and I made it out there... Tanya and Chiquis didn't haha ( Read more... )