i'm scared ( Read more... )

i thought i was better than looks, you know?
for once in my life, i thought i had it all
i thought i was good enough for someone
or atleast i thought i was getting there

There's this heaviness that seems to be constantly thrusted upon me that I can't escape. Every emotion appears to be dulled down and brings me to a state of passive excitement. It probably doesn't make sense but every thing that would normally make me cry is just absorbed and something to make me really happy is just like a little bonus for the ( Read more... )

I'm in one of those moods where I just want to pour all my feelings onto a piece of paper, well a computer and somehow wish it'll help. I have so many opposite notions floating around in my head and it leaves me really confused, and rather than upset, just in a blur, a daze, where nothing seems to be fulfilling. My brief blissful happiness is ( Read more... )

I feel so relaxed and rejuvinated right now. My mind is clear and I was able to express how I feel without thinking twice about it. It was like a dream come true. I just feel so happy, free, and excited for what's to come.

I had another really good day and it's all one reason. It makes everything more sensible and I'm noticing myself smiling more. I hope tomorrow goes well. I'm so thankful and hope it continues.

The new Minus the Bear is amazing "Planet of Ice" it's coming out August 29th, but if you want it now I can send it to you.

Alright goodbye!

Recently I've become infatuated with music in a more intellectual sense than most people that just adore music, such as myself. The amazing thing about music is that it expresses the feelings that are so powerful than one can't even bring them to words. I feel like being able to capture that through a compiling of notes on an instrument is an ( Read more... )

You know how exercising releases endorphins? I'm pretty convinced that's me with nice weather. I love how it is outside this past week, its like a breath of fresh, pure air that almost makes you forget about everything for a moment. Today for example, I just sat down on my driveway and looked at my surroundings and really was just in awe at the ( Read more... )

I was sitting here trying to think of what to write about, and I realized I'm completely thoughtless right now. There's just some points where I'm hanging out somewhere, or talking about mindless stuff, and out of nowhere I'll realize that I could be doing much better things with that time. I keep saying I want to make a difference but I don't ( Read more... )

Today I realized that I was observing people's mannerisms. It's interesting if you continue to notice it. Like when you see certain people in different situations. I have a friend that sometimes you see her true colors shining through and it's natural for her to be what she's appearing as. However, in other situations you see she's afraid and ( Read more... )