i swear to god....what the fuck? as soon as i think everything is okay, ive got a fresh new start with a fresh new boy, the past is done and over with, it comes back. will i ever get a break? i ask myself one of my favorite quotes from SATC...can i get to my furture, if my past is present? i dont think i can. its like clock work. as soon as i let ( Read more... )

hahaha sunday night with jessie and mollee.....what a memory!

i cannot fucking cry over devin anymore, i really cant take this. im so psychologically fucking up right now im my fucking head i dont even know what to do. i feel like nothing. i am nothing. im nothing but a drunken whore who has nothing going for her who feels nothing anymore. i hate devin. i hate him but i love him. i hate this. i hate ( Read more... )

devin called me friday night to apologize for being an asshole to me. its very rare that that happens, but when he did i was like "you want sex dont you?" and hes like, "no, i want to just hang out with you, i dont care if we have sex or not, i just wanted to apologize." my guess, is hes jelous cause i went to the rock shop at lunch to see billy ( Read more... )

i started doing it again.....

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honestly....when will this go away? when will this end? im so hurt.i always think it cant get any worse, but somehow it does. is this it? i never know. i feel like it is every time and it never is. but is this it this time? i hate not knowing. inside of a year, me and devin and completely switched places. now i know how he felt. and now he knows ( Read more... )

okay, maybe im just paranoid, or maybe im over thinking and analyzing things, i dont know. but lately ive seen/heard so many things and signs about school shootings and columbine and stuff where its creeping me out. like really. first i had a dream about it, then there were tv shows about columbine on tv, then i heard on the news about Rochester ( Read more... )

he called ( Read more... )

the Adventurer
Test finished!

you chose AX - your Enneagram type is SEVEN.

"I am happy and open to new things"

Adventurers are energetic, lively, and optimistic. They want to contribute to the world.

How to Get Along with Me

• Give me companionship, affection, and freedom.
  
• Engage with me in stimulating conversation and laughter.
  
• Appreciate ( Read more... )

im being a slacker today. i left school early, AND im not going to work. i havent called off work in god knows how long, so its kinda nice. me tabby nick and ryan are getting together when tabby gets here after school. im really excited, i think i might cry a little because i havent seen those boys in FOREVER! it should be fun. yeah. well, that it ( Read more... )