i don't even know where to begin.  im feeling a little bit overwhelmed and a whole lotta stress.  my eyes are swollen from crying all day. i need to sleep but my brain just wont let me i wanna scream and yell but i dont even have the energy yo do that it sounds exhausting just thinking about doing it.  i just want to sleep and wake up and have ( Read more... )

well the hollidays are comming to soon. i wanted to move by then. my plans are kinda falling apart on me. and now im back at trying to figure out what exactly im suppose to . i hate waiting. i hate waiting ot hear the news of when its gonna happen. now dont get me wrong i m happy i love the life im living i just hate at where im at. i hate this ( Read more... )

 iIreally suck with this site.  Its either i have nothing to update on or i just suk lol.. Im thinkin its more the second one. Its been so long i keep forgettin im even  ON this whole journal thing. But i do hav something to say this time. its pretty exciting at least for me it is. Im in Niles at the moment and yesterday Stephen took me to this old ( Read more... )

There has been a lack of involvement  with me and this whole journal thing. i realize some people  just suck. i walk away, take a step back and noone took a step closer towards me. I'm tired of being the one who pursues the "friendship". noone ever steps up. you all failed the test. not one person i talk to not even one. you say you want to be my " ( Read more... )

i got nothing to update on :(

Ive realized the last few days that I believe im loosing this battle, and im starting to believe maybe i should throw in the towel. ( so to speak). So  Im not sure  why im even in this game. Its obvious  im loosing but yet i keep throwing out lifelines waitin for a snag. But its not happening, and im not sure why im still here... Friends dont treat ( Read more... )

so yea im still alive the wolf didn't come n eat me. I have been havind weird dreams lately. Lastnight it wad about me and my mom and dad going on a vacation i think in alaska. and were walking around this small town, im not wearing socks but I did have  on a snosuit. So im standing in the middle of town and this guy walks up to me and i say ( Read more... )

WHY CANT I POST IN A PIC IN HERE WHAT THE.....GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR

Wow!  I have been extremely lame about this site I actually forgot. Until this morning when a certain fella named Aaron ( i just asked him his name  ) tehehe...  anyway he had me on his list from YEARS ago Im talkin YEARS. and then i got thinkin hmmm i should be writtin in here its actually better for me to say things and get things said that i ( Read more... )

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