I realized that I blog like crazy on myspace but never on this journal. Someone tell me how to use this thing easily and maybe I'll write here more! How do I link more friends into this anyway? Damn I am computer unfriendly! So here's my latest blog from myspace ( Read more... )

To just want to walk away? I have two days off. The first time in three weeks. And the desire to never go back is so strong and seductive. Actually right now the desire to walk away from everything and everyone is compelling.

I'm tired. And mostly I am so tired of being tired.

I'm being a bitch at work and I know it. I am vacillating on what to do. Jump in the pool or walk away. I don't want to let people down but I don't want to feel like I am lying my way through an interview either. I am clear somewhere deep inside but my "should's" and "ought to's" keep getting in the way. That and the feeling that I am a ( Read more... )

This is why I can't help but love Iyanla. Because more than anyone else on that damn show, as ridiculously cheesy and new agey as she can be, she also says lots of amazingly insightful things ( Read more... )

Why was today so damn hard? I felt like I was juggling 8 balls unsuccessfully. Actually, I often feel this way. I run around like a chicken with its head cut off, putting out fires, managing cafe inventories, sending off emails, receiving random multimedia, etc. I hate feeling that I am not really completing anything, not really helping anyone ( Read more... )

How does she know just what to say? I'm sorry, this song just couldn't be any better ( Read more... )

Okay, so I can never eloquently argue my point verbally. I'm more of a written word person. So this is why I disagree ( Read more... )

Why is it that I feel compelled to check his myspace everyday? See what he's up to, figure out the connections in his life, figure out his status. Who the hell cares anyway? He doesn't care about me, any more obvious on that one and he'd have to hit me over the head with a tire iron. So what's with this obsession? Is it just something to do, ( Read more... )

Just talked to my Dad and I can hear it in his voice. He is disappointed in me. I say it's my life, that I don't care, but then why does that hurt? He is always thinking I am doing the wrong thing and then I internalize his judgements. I feel like he views me as his daughter--the failure. Not married, no boyfriend, a career that is ( Read more... )

Lady of silences ( Read more... )